Thursday, November 5, 2009
Wow. Can't believe it's been this long.
Monday, July 6, 2009
Saturday punishment and a word on being busy with RL
Saturday
Domina wished to keep training her cock which in this instance meant punishing her cock. We have a post in our finished basement and Domina made use of it this night. I can't recall all the details but the crux was this: my cock was caned mercilessly.
Domina used the black rope to tightly bind her cock and balls so they were turning a nice shade of purple. She gets this effect more by looping the rope over my head while knotting in places and then yanking it down to tie it back through my legs so the rope is up my ass as well. I know she loves the way it looks. This night she wrapped a bungee around the post and used one of the short bungees to attach from the wrapped bungee to the rope between my legs. I had to step forward and stretch the bungee which puts great pressure on her cock and balls. It makes her cock stick out, straining quite nicely and I am orderred to stand straight. She brought out the thickest cane and began. She loves to beat me in tens, ten strokes on her cock at a time. Her favorite part of beating her cock is to bring the cane down on the tip hard and watch it bounce. Oh does she like to watch it bounce. I of course have to have the bit in my mouth. 50 strokes later and she released me. She parked me in the corner for a bit while she relaxed and then had me lay in front of her and stroke her cock ordering me to keep it from drooling. At the time I had not cum for over a week (now 10 days) and it was impossible for precum not to emerge. When this happened she would rap her cock with the cane and I would have to wipe it off with my fingers and lick and suck them clean. When she finished with this she did something I did not expect....she wrapped me back into the rope and attached me to the bungees AGAIN. She wasn't finished training her cock. She brought the cane down 20 more times I think and then gave me an opportunity to not receive more. She stepped in front of me and pulled down her panties to reveal her angelic ass to me. "Step forward and lick it bitch. If you do well enough I may stop caning my cock." she said. I strained against the bungee to stick my tongue as deep in her ass as I could. Of course she kept moving forward as she laughed and I had to strain the cords even more. Abrutly she stopped and declared I couldn't even lick ass well enough. I was made to stand where I was as she completed 50 more strokes across her cock. It was unbearable but I took it for my Domina. I am her pain toy. I would have taken more, I WANTED to take more for her!
She did say she was not anywhere near finished training her cock.
Thursday, July 2, 2009
A special tag
SLAVE
Luckily it was an automated machine and no one saw it. not that I wouldn't have done it anyway, I will do whatever Domina commands and revel in it. It's a cute little blue, bone shaped tag. She LOVED it! so much so that I was allowed to sleep with her again while chained to the bed with the leash.
Tonight will be another night of extended punishment. I look forward to being able to take whatever Domina has prepared with great anticipation!
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Sometimes begging works
Monday, June 29, 2009
Punishment begins
She decided we would do tonights all in the beroom. First, I was inspected as usual, my chest I was allowed a pass on as I have had some irritation lately and had asked permission earlier to let it recover. Domina's balls did not pass however and I was immediately given 20 with the crop across my ass for this. Next Domina used the black rope to tightly bind her cock and balls. She loops the rope around my waist and up my ass so she can pull it as tight as possible. Her cock stands out straight and purple, and she loves it. She always giggles evily when it is tied up like this. I had PAIN TOY written across my ass in Sharpie as she does love to label for what she wants to do to me. Domina applied the wrist and ankle cuffs and ordered me to bend over the small wooden chair as she brought the bit-gag around my mouth, she knew I would need it. She started with the crop as a warm up and gave me quite a few and moved into the spatula. After a few strokes she asked "How many is that pet?" I paused. I hadn't been counting. "You don't know do you?" she stated more than asked. "No Domina," I whispered. "Oh well, we'll just start at one," she sang happily. The best part is when she was done beating me with the spatula, she never even asked how many, but it was a little over 100 times.
I was then ordered to my knees and to place my hands back and plant my face on the floor. She clasped my ankle and wrist cuffs together, placed one of the strands of four clothes pins on my chest and nipples, pushed me to the floor and put her foot on my face. "Keep your face on the floor fuck toy." she ordered. "These will stay on your balls for awhile," she laughed as she attached the other strand of 4 clothespins to my balls. I can't recall if she beat me more with the spatula or the crop but it was one of the two and then she moved to grab a cane.
After a few whacks and yelps from me she stated "I'll remove one clothespin after 20 strokes. Get ready and count them." These were hard to take (bent over like this the beatings hurt more as the flesh is more stretched out and a little less cushion there) and I certainly wasn't quiet, I was biting the bit quite hard. I was admonished and given some extra strokes a couple times for moving around too much which put the count of cane strokes well over 100. Domina was not finished beating my ass and pulled down the wood paddle. "Your night is not over yet Pain Toy, " she purred. "COUNT", she ordered and the paddle slammed home, 20, and again, 40, 50. Pause. SLAM, 60, 70, 90 100, 120. Finally Domina stopped. "On your knees!" As I raised she ripped the clothespins off my chest, I had forgotten about them and I yelped in pain. She laughed.
She sat in the chair and had me waddle over in my restrainsts. And began to whip the crop over the tip of her cock. Each time sets of ten that I had to count. Over and over and over. I don't know how many times, but I assume we got to 100. I was biting the bit soooo hard.
As I kneeled there whimpering she said "Now pet, you'll see that I have removed the doggie pillow from the cage to leave only the hard plastic tray. This is how you will be sleeping tonight, to help you remember to control my cock, on the hard plastic. Maybe you can earn the doggie pillow back. But you know what the tray is for don't you pet? Get in the cage." She locked me in after removing my cuffs and had me as close to one side as possible as she slid her panties off and stepped up on the chair and effectively squatted over me. I was waiting in great anticipation as she released her self on me. I know she enjoyed it immensely as she ordered me to piss on myself as well and watched intently. "You can wallow in that for a minute or two and then you will clean it up, shower yourself off and then I'll lock you back in for the night pet, " she stated.
And I have not had as uncomfortable night as that before. Domina's cock was throbbing, my ass was stinging and I had to sleep on the hard plastic. I want desperately to control Domina's cock for her. And as she said, this was only the beginning of my punishment...
Sunday, June 28, 2009
Quiet until tonight
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
I.Have.No.Resolve
A note on sleeping in the cage: I can fit in the cage fine...as long as my legs are bent. So I have to sleep curled up like this and I have enough room to shift from side to side but my legs are always bent. By the time morning rolls around I desperately hope I do not wake up too much early than Domina as this is when it is most uncomfortable. By morning I am desperate to stretch my legs out but I cannot. I also hope I don't wake too early and have to pee as I will not risk waking Domina to ask permission. She would be quite angry if I woke her. Quite angry.
So, I slept all night in the cage and today Domina was not feeling well and worked from home. Sometime in the morning I came upstairs and she desired to pet me and allowed me to lay next to her. She began stroking her cock some and it felt so wonderful. Here is where my lack of any resolve comes in. I couldn't even control myself with her hand stroking her cock and I came. She was livid. I got beat with the spatula right there and now I am awaiting even greater punishment. I really don't know how to control the orgasm after not cumming for days. I've tried clinching and breathing. I just have to try harder for Domina.
I fear what will come from this. I know that I'll at least be in the cage again.
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
Back in the cage....
I lasted all of a few seconds.
She was quite angry and declared right then that I would be sleeping in the cage the next two nights. I begged and begged to no avail. She did allow me to aid in her orgasm by pleasuring her breasts. She does enjoy making me watch her cum but I know she wants to fuck her cock. She keeps threatening to bring in another cock that can actually satisfy her. I would of course be locked in the cage and forced to watch. I certainly don't wish this but I would endure it for her. I want nothing but her pleasure!
While helping her cum I thought of trying to prolong it in some way briefly, But I knew it was only a selfish thought to keep from going in the cage as long as possible so I of course did not act on the thoughts. I feel badly for even having them. :(
I reluctantly crawled to the cage last night and begged and begged not to go in but it only angered Domina and she kicked me a few times on my way in. I spent most of the night there but luckily Domina got restless and let me out as she wished to feel me next to her in my collar. I know thought that I will be back in tonight...
Monday, June 22, 2009
Getting back into it
Last night I spent much of the evening sitting on Domina's lap in my panties and collar. She stroked her cock for a good 5 minutes solid too. I make a good lap dog for her! It also meant I got to share her bed last night as well. After I got my nightly beating worth of three nights in all at once. She certainly missed giving them to me. I am so happy to be in my collar and at her feet again. Also, it's been four days since she has allowed her pet to cum. I have no idea how long it will be this time, though I am still waiting to see what my punishment will be for cumming without permission the last time.
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
My place this week: end of the bed
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
A lull in the action
That being said I need to update on what happened Thursday night...
Epic fail. That is only how I can describe what happened. Domina was already being generous with herself and allowing me to aid in her orgasm again while she pleasured herself. But again, Domina wished to fuck her cock....I am worthless to her in this way as I once again could not handle the absolute joy of being inside her and came again without permission. She was pissed to say the least. She drug me off the bed and immediately threw me in the cage. I said nothing as there was nothing I could say. I failed her. Again. Even though we had our issues over the weekend I know I will still be punished very severely for last week. I know Domina has been doing research so I cannot imagine what will happen, it will only make it worse that I know the bulk of it won't come this weekend either. She may have something clever planned while we're out of town. I am trying to make up for it but work is getting im the way as well, another excuse I know she won't accept.
Thursday, June 11, 2009
cumming without permission. Again. :(
Halfway through the night my downfall was sealed. Domina awoke and grabbed me by my collar to her. "I want my cock inside me slave", she ordered. It felt extremely good. Oh god it felt too good. I tried to stop it. I grabbed Domina's cock and squeezed hard but it was too late. She let me put it inside her and fuck her as I came and she was laughing at me while it happened. "Pitiful slave. Pitiful". Then she shoved me to the end of the bed letting me know my punishment would be severe.
I still do not know what my punishment will be. I was at least allowed to aid Domina in her orgasm last night and sleep at Domina's feet (I fully expected to be in the cage all week) but she has not touched her cock since. I am waiting in fear as to what my punishment will be this weekend...
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
A quiet night
Monday, June 8, 2009
Sunday night: pet gets to cum!! But there's always a price..
Sunday, she made up for it (for herself of course). It wasn't a long session but it was rather intense. There weren't any specific things for which I was being punished, simply Domina training her pet how she wishes. This night we were only in the bedroom. The first part was actually my favorite part as it was something we hadn't really done before to this extent. I was bent over a chair backwards, grabbing the legs of the chair. I had the cuffs on and Domina latched my wrists together so I could not pull up. She started beating my ass then, I know she used the crop, and the spatula, there may have been other things but I could not see and she eventually shoved the ball gag in my mouth to stifle me. I wished I could have taken more beating for Domina in this position but she stopped and ordered me to spread my legs. She was going to shave my ass. After that she cleaned me out but with a twist. After she emptied the enema bottle into me she proceeded to sit on my face. I love when Domina tortures me in this way and the mix of focusing on keeping my bowels in while not being able to breathe was quite heady. Domina loved it as well since she went right to her vibrator while I relieved myself. After I finished my cold shower (I hoped my shrieks helped turn Domina on even more) she ordered me to please her tits to make sure she came quickly. She did and I was sooo happy for her! Domina shoved me back to the floor as soon as she came. Then my wrists were chained to the head of the bed while I was on my knees. I could hear Domina strapping on her cock getting ready to fuck my ass. She climbed on top of me and shoved it in quickly. I yelped away in pain and was ashamed I could not take it quickly enough for her. Domina just laughed and slid it in more slowly. It felt wonderful for Domina to have me chained to the bed while she fucked and fucked and fucked my ass. I know it please her when I am her asswhore!! She decided she was finished and ordered me to the bathtub. I was allowed to piss on myself while Domina stood over me and pissed all over my face. I love taking this for her! Finally, Domina ordered me to clean myself again and announced that I would be allowed to cum! I was soooooo excited!!!
When I had dried myself and emerged from the bathroom she was on the bed on all fours. "I want you to come on my ass slave. DO IT!!" I had to rub her cock all over her ass, and she even let me fuck her pussy for a little, and then I came all over her ass. It had been two weeks and it felt wonderful! It is always tempered however since I knew what would happen next.
"Clean it up slave." Domina purred. "You know how I mean so get to it."
I got down on my hands and knees and proceeded to lick the cum off of Domina's ass. I know if I do it enthusiastically enough I could be rewarded by sharing Domina's bed. I sucked and licked her ass as well as I could. I was able to sleep next to Domina all night as I had pleased her greatly! I hope I continue this as she continues my training.
Friday, June 5, 2009
pet's new "bed"
Also last evening we went shopping for the next part of my punishment for not sleeping at the end of Domina's bed...at the pet store. She picked out a 42" dog cage that would be big enough to hold me. (I am only 5'7" and right now weigh about 150 lbs) I was incredibly ashamed...and incredibly turned on. I had to go back out after putting our son to bed and purchase it and set it up. I was given permission to go out last night but before Domina wanted to see me naked in the cage. Her cock betrayed me as it was rock hard being in the cage. This is also because the cage pleased Domina immensely, she loves it. Of course last night I had to sleep in the cage, I at least already had a pet pillow on which to sleep. I fit snugly in my cage and I am happy that Domina would put this kind of thought into my training as her pet. (Again, luckily, the house was cold and Domina retrieved her pet in the night to warm her bed. Thank you again Domina!)
Thursday, June 4, 2009
More Punishment
Today, for not sending her a picture yesterday, I had to pick out a full lingerie outfit to wear all day and send Domina pics. I picked a nice pink corset, my pink butterfly panties and thigh high stockings. maybe some point I will be able to upload photos with Domina's permission...
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
Should have been a normal night...
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
A new week with Domina!
Monday I worked from home and was able to sit in my collar and panties all day. Domina certainly enjoyed her daily pic of her cock and panties with the bruises that she had raised. She loves the deep shades of purple her cock turns after she has beaten it. Monday night Domina warned that her cock had better shape up or she may get another to please her. She said she would make me watch as she fucked another and after she came all over his cock she would make me eat her pussy while she sat on my face. I told Domina that I would do whatever she pleased but I would be ashamed that her cock would not please her. I also wondered quietly whether or not the cock she came on would have come inside her when she sat on my face...I would do it for Domina. I sat later at Domina's feet while we finished a movie and then she decided she needed to cum. I was to stroke her cock and aid in her orgasm and again watch as she came on her dildo, it is soooo frustrating as I want to touch her more. She actually ordered me to stick my finger in her ass while she came! What an honor, I was soo happy! I want her to touch me more. And then she decided to slide her wet pussy onto her cock after I had been forced to stroke it with luve and it was rock hard from having my finger in her ass. I lasted as long as I could and Domina laughed at my struggles. I am pitiful. And I finished the night by curling up at her feet at the end of the bed. Her cock was still hard.
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Real Punishment
Domina loves to label her pet to her desires and tonight she wrote ASS WHORE across my ass in shrpie. Then the beating began. I don't recall how many, there was too much too count which of course meant I took more. She started with a small but painful flat spatula she has adopted soley for spanking and then went to her canes. I think she used them all, she has a handful in various sizes. The ones across the tops of my thighs are always the hardest. Then she used the real paddle. The long, thick wooden paddle- her favorite. I wish I could remember how many I took but she beat me until her arm was too tired. Maybe 100 strikes? Then she turned me around.
Domina reminded me again that she was beating her cock to make sure I could remember not to cum without permission. She loves to start these with her small headed crop, just the right size for smacking across her cock. By the time she moved to the cane I was whimpering loudly. A few strikes across her cock with the cane she was done with my noises. If I was not quieter she would beat me more. It's surprsing how much of an affect this can have, my jaw certainly was sore the next day as I bit down on the ball to endure the caning of Domina's cock.
When she finished with this I was removed from the wall, cuffs still on, and moved to the living area where I had placed a towel, lube and Domina's strap on. Thankfully this a 6 inch cock though Domina has threatened to by a larger one, I'm sure she will surprise me with it at some point. I of course needed to lube Domina's strap on and was forced to suck it. If I do not worship her strap on cock properly things would only get worse and I sucked it as best I could. Next she latched my arm cuffs to my ankle cuffs and guided her lubed cock into my ass. This is when Domina expects me to be her good little ass whore. She likes to simply fuck me and then make me fuck her. Again, I must perform well and I fuck her cock like a good little ass whore! I love to slide my ass up and down her cock for her. I know it pleasures her to watch me ride it! She loves it sooo much and eventually I get so tired, my head is pressed to the carpet with my hands latched behind me, and this is when she revels in fucking me silly. She did this for 30 minutes I think. I took it long and hard for her.
Finally Domina was finished with me and I picked up and cleaned up all her toys while she rested. I thought she had more punishment to give me but she was finished with me. Luckily I pleased her enough that I was able to sleep close to her!
I worked hard this morning when we got up and did house work for her in my collar and panties while she read the paper (our son was staying overnight with his grandparents). I do so love being able to serve Domina!
Saturday, May 30, 2009
A taste of punishment
Today we did not do much as it was more of family time. I know tonight will be a much larger challenge as I am cleansed of my transgressions. I hope I perform well for my beloved Domina.
Friday, May 29, 2009
5/28/09
Last night Domina was still disappointed in her pet. I was out with an approved outing with friends and when I got back she did not give her pet much attention, not that it was deserved. I received my nightly spanking and was chastised again for failing her. I was allowed to sleep in Domina’s bed, in case she wanted to pleasure herself on her cock, but I was not allowed to sleep close to her. This was almost worse than having to sleep on my pet bed or at the foot of the bed. Domina never touched her pet. L
I had to travel for work today and was not around Domina at all during the day, I’m sure she was fine with this with my failures, though I was to check in with her before being allowed to have lunch. When I did, Domina informed me she would not be touching her cock this week or the next. I was crestfallen. However at lunch I was to stroke her cock for five minutes in the bathroom stall. I, of course, sent her a picture of her cock showing my panties as she expects.
As I sit at Domina’s feet as she watches TV I expect she will not touch her pet again tonight. I can only hope to be allowed to help her pleasure herself in some way.
5/29/09
Domina continues to be displeased with me. I was only to work on the blog last night after she gave me my nightly spanking over her knee. I so wanted her to continue so that I could stay in contact with her but it was short. I was told to work on the blog and then to sleep at the foot of her bed. I was at least happy to be at her feet in my collar.
I was working from home and able to be in my collar and panties all day today. Now I am awaiting some of my punishments for my failures this week. I can only hope I take them to her satisfaction and she rewards me with her touch.
Thursday, May 28, 2009
5/26/09
I love it when Domina plays with me during the week! Well. Makes me play with myself while she pleasures herself in this case. Of course Domina had more planned last night but after she administered her reminder of my service and responsibilities and then I was too slow trying to assemble her new equipment cabinet she was upset with me. All I was allowed to do was clean myself out with an enema, relieve myself in front of her in my bucket and then fuck myself while Domina masturbated. She wanted to see me fuck myself silly with the “big, red jelly dong” while she fantasized another well endowed boy was fucking me in the ass. I had to get it in quickly and fuck myself over and over thinking about another man’s cock in my ass while she watched I really got into it for Domina. (I know if I didn’t and help her cum I would likely be sleeping on my pet bed with the dildo in my ass the rest of the night.) I was eventually yelling things like “Please make me your bitch!”, “Fuck my dirty ass, SHOVE IT IN!”, “Please fuck me hard for my Domina!” and “CUM IN MY ASS PLEASE CUM IN MY ASS!!!” I am ashamed to admit that I liked the fantasy a lot. I would love to have my ass fucked for my Domina!
I was happy that I pleased my Domina. She came and I got to sleep in the bed under the covers with her. I was sooo happy! :D
I’ve been working from home today and been able to be in my collar and panties for Domain all day! She was able to come home from work after her dental appointment and I was also given the honor of greeting her properly on my knees. I don’t get to do this often and I cherish it every opportunity.
5/27/09
Last night was not as joyful for Domina’s pet. I finished Domina’s new cabinet and organized it to her satisfaction. Then she wished to stroke her cock.
….
She stroked her cock for a bit and then she wished to cum. I was to stroke her cock while assisting in her orgasm by sucking and biting her nipples. This part I did well, she came at least. After she was finished she wished to stroke her cock more with lube. I…tried VERY hard but it had been nine days since pet’s last orgasm and her touch felt sooooo good. She tried to squeeze her cock and keep it in but I could not control it. I came. :( :( :( It was not enjoyable as I tried to keep it in and she would not stroke her cock to make it pleasurable. I did not deserve it of course.
Domina was extremely disappointed in her pet. Rightfully so. :( Because of this Domina would not let me share her bed and her pet slept on the pet bed.
Domina did not pay attention to her pet for most of the day, she was busy but I know it was also because I disappointed her. Her pet was allowed to go out with friends for a planned night out; I believe permission was granted because she did not want me around. I can only hope to make it up to her some how. I know my punishment will be severe and I fear I will not cum again for sometime. I must be able to control her cock so she may do with it as she pleases.
pet's Rules and Responsibilities
Rules and Requirements for Domina’s pet:
Rules:
- Wear panties at all times, the pet is the Domnia’s panty boy and may not wear Men’s underwear
- Wear the collar whenever appropriate- This is any time the pet is alone with Domina in her home or when so told to put it on.
- NEVER touch Domina’s cock- the pet does not have a cock, it belongs to Domina and the pet is only to touch it when cleaning or pissing NEVER for pleasure unless told to do so.
- Always greet in proper position- In private the pet will greet Domina in the proper kneeling, head on the floor, at her feet position. In public, the pet will come to her and rest the pet’s head on hers in deference. The pet will always express how much the pet has missed Domina and worshipping at her feet.
- The pet is not allowed to sit on furniture. Pets DO NOT sit on furniture.
- NEVER make eye contact with Domina unless given permission. The pet is not worthy.
- DO NOT speak, unless spoken to or unless given permission to speak freely
- DO NOT touch Domina unless given permission
- The pet will be ready for its nightly spanking before Domina retires for the night
- The pet is not allowed in Domina’s bed without permission and must ask every night
- The pet must be properly groomed with shaved face, chest, cock and balls
- Update my pet journal daily and punishment log as needed
- The pet MUST request permission for the following:
Use the bathroom
Eat
Leave the house
*When applicable, these rules apply to all other Mistresses as so designated by Domina
Always have the following in the house:
- Wine- White, Domina’s favorite is Barefoot Pinot Grigio
- Enemas- only store generics, the pet does not need anything else
- Lube- Make sure plenty of lube is available
Tasks that must be done when appropriate:
- Cleaning all dildos
- Ensure all “toys” and equipment are put away in their proper places
- Hang Domina’s clothes up each day or night
Both Domina and I work and we have a wonderful son together. This simply makes meeting my requirements as her pet that more challenging and enjoyable.