Our first time..

Domina and I visited a BDSM club/dungeon for the first this past Saturday. It was more of an information gathering and observation visit since neither of us had never been to one before. The club had an educational session followed by a demonstration of a violet wand as well as dungeon play afterward. I believe Domina was very interested as it would give her ample opportunity to revel in her slave's humiliation. They had many wonderful aspects to the main dungeon as well as several separate additional rooms. My mind was racing with the possibilities as I hoped Domina's was...spanking benches, suspension cube, a shower area, a chain web, so many ways for Domina to restrain me and beat me and humiliate me. I fantasized immediately about her taking me to the make-up room and dressing me as her panty boy and then leading me out on her leash to the main dungeon.... I cannot wait to go back and I know Domina is fantasizing about it as well.

Back from the Holiday

...and I am back at her feet, collar on and Domina with leash in hand and things are back to normal finally. We just returned home today and I couldn't wait to be groveling on the floor for her. Domina had her cock locked up all week and only unlocked it tonight for cleaning and she has decided to keep it unlocked for tonight. When this happens I am extremely fearful of having an accident as her cock is in new territory as far as abstinence is concerned. Her cock has never gone this long without cumming and the last thing I want is to disappoint her.

Also, I cannot contain my absolute joy, fear and anticipation for this Saturday. We are finally taking the step of attending a local lifestyle event. I cannot express what a wonderful and HUGE step this is for us and I can't wait..except I am also scared of what may happen from this point on. However that's what makes my submission to Domina meaningful. I will do whatever she asks no matter my trepidation. I am hers.

A HUGE distraction

...but proud to say Domina and I are completely dedicated to me being her pet. I had to travel a few weeks ago and for the trip I had to pack a bag. This means that Domina always requires me to take some items with me and she really wanted me to work on the Ass of Spades butt plug that we have had for some time. I wanted more than anything to take this for Domina and I did to my great satisfaction...and unfortunately to my great disappointment and pain. It was too big and I was blind to it in my euphoria in taking more for my Domina. It caused me great pain and discomfort for weeks and I am still not 100% recovered but close. During all of this though we have never wavered, even with a weekend trip with friends where Domina allowed me to touch her. She even let me inside her which I was VERY thankful for since I never know when or where that will happen. Also, I know that she understood that I was in extreme pain and discomfort but that she was tracking all of the housework that she was being subjected to for future punishments. Thankfully I am now fully locked away again, able to perform my duties and spending the evenings at Domina's feet with my collar on and her leash attached and in hand.

And the cum counter is accurate. Domina's cock has not cum in almost 60 days and from Domina's comments she cannot see me doing anything to warrant her allowing it to happen any time soon. We will not get a chance to have a pet's punishment/Domina's pleasure session for a couple of weeks due to visiting family for the holiday.

I am also adding pics from the last pleasure session Domina had. She pulled out the clothespins for the first time in a long time and applied them to her cock. Also, she loves to dress me in lingerie even if it is just a top. I have to say it makes me excited when she does this as I am HER panty boy.

Back to Domina's basement

This past week I spent half the nights sleeping at Domina's feet until she would get cold and allow me to warm her bed. On Saturday we finally returned to Domina's basement dungeon and she was quite excited to try out a new purchase. Domina had bought some new accessories for her E-Stim enjoyment, straps with contacts to wrap around her cock. Domina had me strapped to the wall and continually shocked her cock while beating my ass. It was quite a challenging experience and she was going to make sure of it. She spent A LOT of time beating my ass and thighs since she hadn't had me strapped down for so long. I bit down and took everything she wanted to give me...and then she turned me around and beat her cock as well. I know she is getting me ready to show off in front of others and must make sure I am truly her Pain Toy. I hope I have shown her that I am ready! I also treasured the rewards Domina gave me- sniffing her ass, sharing her bed and she even stroked her cock briefly the next morning before locking it back up!

It didn't last..

My euphoria from earlier in the week didn't last. Domina looked a little closer at some of the other cleaning assignments she gave me and was most...displeased. I was back in the cage Wednesday night. I am not able to stay asleep in the cage all night, and I end up thrashing and shivering enough that Domina feels she must release me and allow me in to her bed to warm up and shut me up. She had to do this Wednesday night, decided to allow me in her bed Thursday to be rested for work but then had to repeat the process after locking me in last night. I KNOW she is tiring of this and I am afraid of what her solution will be. Will she move my cage elsewhere so she doesn't have to deal with me? I do know Domina will enjoy enacting her corporal punishments tonight.

A realization came crashing down on me this morning. Domina's bathroom has a stand-up shower with glass enclosure right next to the jacuzzi tub. Since we were in a hurry I was showering and Domina was bathing at the same time. She was reading a book and could not see me as I was standing there mesmerized by the site of her parted legs and pussy. It dawned on me that I hadn't actually been allowed to see her pussy in many weeks. I quickly turned my head and finshed my shower as Domina's cock strained against the chastity.

Cleaning for Domina and being rewarded!

I had Monday off as a holiday and I was able to finish some tasks that Domina set for me. I worked HARD to get everything completed for her, I payed special attention to vacumming and wiping down the inside of Domina's car as she was adament this be done. I absolutely love being able to clean naked for her whenever possible. I only wish she was able to watch over me while I do it.

When she came home she checked on my work and leaned into my ear "I am VERY pleased with your work pet, you will be rewarded tonight". Oh, how happy I was!!!!!!

Later as I was kneeling at the side of her bed in my panties she revealed her reward for me. "Tonight slave not only do you get to sleep in my bed but you also get to fuck me with the big dick...Mmmmm" she purred. I couldn't have been happier! I could not ask for a better reward than having a hand in helping my Domina to orgasm! I even felt a little bold and begged if I could lick her pussy some before fucking her but she simply laughed "You haven't earned THAT much pet."

I'm satisified to say that I helped her cum twice with her favorite big cock. She came very hard and was very pleased. She even pulled me close and petted me for awhile. :) I've attached the picture of the kinda of dick Domina needs and the one she owns.

A Cock Beating.

All Domina wished to do was to beat her cock. There was no counting, there was no "only this many more". There was simply her cane on her cock mixed in with some E-Stim.

I gritted my teeth on the ball ball gag and endured. I begged her for more every step of the way.

As promised I was locked in the cage again all night. She purchased new Master locks just for her cage.

Rule updates

Domina has dictated some changes for her rules. While small in text changes they are significant in impact. Most assuredly she has made it clear to me that I have no wants or needs, they do not exist. I welcome this as I know I cannot function any other way. I am hers. She owns me. She will restrain and punish me as she deems fit. I will sleep in her cage or on the floor at her whim.

For the next two nights Domina has commanded me to sleep in her cage as I have failed her. I failed to keep her house clean and failed to keep her dildo clean. I was genuinely sorry for this but of course Domina would hear no excuses.

I will beg her. I hate the cage. She will ignore me, but I will beg. I will beg with all my soul. I wish to be at her side, I hate the cage.

I hate the cage.

A Final Beginning

This is it. I am her slave. It's done and there is no turning back.

I know we've "rebooted" before, restarted or whatever. This is DIFFERENT. I know it is, I FEEL it, it HAS to be. I'm wearing my slave collar again. We've had our own personal collaring ceremony. Domina's attitude toward our lifestyle is different. She is more focused, more unrelentingly cruel, as she needs to be to keep her slave in line.

She is dedicated to being involved in a local community. Her greatest desires and fantasies are to humiliate and cuckold me. It makes her cock try to get hard and me fearful all at once. I am wearing the chastity, I am sitting on the floor at her feet, I am wearing the panties she picked out, I have done the laundry, I have done the dishes, I have slept on the floor, I will do nothing without her permission and it is euphoric.

Some of the rules will change, be more realistic to our lives but the core will remain the same- I AM HERS..FOREVER. She will brand me and tattoo me, mark me.

I have no idea when her cock will cum again and it doesn't matter. Her cock will never cum again if it was she desires. My wants, needs and desires mean nothing...though I need her to feel pleasure and want her desires be fulfilled. That is simply what should be. The rest of our lives begin now.

Mid-week punishments and pictures

I've had a mixed week serving Domina. I have done well in cleaning, laundry and preparing meals but unfortunately I have had a hard time with keeping all of my responsibilities straight. I've not gotten my panty pics on time every day and forgetten my collar some nights. Domina has been "helping" me remember for her. She's also been helping me prepare to try to the Ass of Spades again by shoving the other butt plug in my ass and making me keep it in all night. Every night since Sunday.

She let loose with her paddle and cane with the plug in my ass and also had my Hello Kitty panties stuffed in my mouth.

A quiet weekend

The MiL was in town this past week so it was a quiet one. This weekend has promise to be eventful. I know I have things for which I must atone. :( My chastity continues of course and Domina continues to plan our foray into the local scene which I am of course excited for and dreading at the same time!

An unusual week.

Last week was unusual in that there was a death in my family. Unfortunately my grandfather past away, not unexpected but still a bit of a shock. Domina and I actually kept to our lifestyle more than I thought we would. I had unfortuantely cum without permission earlier in the week however Domina realized that I needed release to help me relax and she allowed me to cum WITH permission later in the week. Going into the weekend however Domina did receive her new purchases from Extreme Restraints which included the new, most intimidating butt plug. I had not realized how intimidating. The Ass of Spades. I believe I tried to take it for her for a good 30 minutes even after she had loosened my ass with the other butt plug. I just couldn't make it work. She was able to cum while she watched me try to take it thankfully. Now the counter has reset. My resolve will be tested again, for much longer according to Domina.

I am ready.

Deprivation continues..

61 days. I think this is the longest Domina's cock has gone without cumming since her pet was in puberty. I am proud to endure it for her! I know she has made new purchases for her asswhore but I do not know what they are. I have had the current biggest butt plug in my ass two nights in a row this week. Just FYI, the stats on the biggest plug are 2.25" in diameter, 7.125 in circumference. I know Domina was looking for bigger than that as I provided her with options as instructed. She is out of town this weekend and her cock is locked away waiting for her return. Hopefully there will be more pics after Sunday night!

New session

Domina finally had me back in her dungeon...unfortunately it was too cold to have an extended session. Or I should say I was too much of a pussy for her to take the cold. But she had to become worried with my actual health and body temperature. She liked her new IKEA bed so much last time that she couldn't wait to have me strapped to it again...after she had me dressed in lingerie and made up as her panty boy. Thankfully she applied the makeup. :) After the little time in the basement she had me taking the Red Jelly Dong as her ass whore. I took it for her greedily!

I was EXTREMELY grateful that Domina allowed me to pleasure her two nights in a row! I begged very hard for the privelege!!! I'm very worried at the opportunities that she will afford me for this once we get more involved in the local scene. And just in case you were wondering, the cum counter is accurate and from Domina's hints it will be some time until she allows her cock to cum. :(

Mini-session...

I'll start by saying that Domina has been keen on keeping up with her rules which I very much need and desire. I've been beaten every night as well as half the nights she has shoved the butt plug and had me sleep with it in all night. She chuckles about stretching my ass out to take more. She has in fact ordered me to find out the diameter of my current, biggest plug and find others that are bigger...


I know Domina wanted very much to put me through a major punishment session this past weekend but she was feeling ill and was just not physically up to it. But she did make sure to to give me a reminder and did have me in a wonderful tie. She enjoyed herself by sitting on my face over and over again and allowed me, after MUCH begging, to stick my tongue in her ass! Of course just as soon as my tongue grazed her ass, she stopped me..."Oh pet, don't think that I'll allow you to lick my ass without something in yours." And she promptly shoved the butt plug back into may ass. She then gave me as much a beating as she felt up to, the pic is the morning after with the plug still in my ass.

Panty pics from last week.

I had a request to post pics of the panties Domina chooses for me and she has given me permission to do so. I'm required to send her pics every work day anyway and she was all too eager to put her panty boy on display. Though I will be lacking a day this week as I forgot one night to present panties to her so I wasn't allowed to wear any that day. Of course you can see that I have the chastity on 24/7. Please comment more as Domina likes to see that others are enjoying my embarrassment!

Domina's strict control. Needed and welcomed!

To begin after the holidays Domina reviewed her rules and increased their intensity for now.

-She is reinstituting her nightly beatings for now. I am to present her with her crop and a cane each night.
-I am to present her with panty options every night so she may pick them for the next day.
-I am to pick up my efforts to keep the house picked and clean for her
-I am to increase my efforts to please her so that I may wear the true slave collar by the end of January


Her most severe punishment for my most recent failures against her commands while she was away is that she will be breaking her cock's "record" for cumming. Her cock will be going much longer than the 7 week mark before. The most that she has done was to unlock it once recently in which she proceeded to tease it by barely touch it with her hands and then rub against it with her wonderful body.

I have already slept on the floor almost every night since the new year (at least to begin with each night, Thankfully Domina gets cold and has me join her bed in the middle of the night) due to her displeasure with me. She also forced the biggest butt plug into my ass and had me keep it in all night for one night.


Domina has relayed her many fantasies of me as her panty boy cuckold. I look forward to her fantasies VERY much. I know she needs a real cock to fuck as she makes sure to remind me. :)