Rule updates

Domina has dictated some changes for her rules. While small in text changes they are significant in impact. Most assuredly she has made it clear to me that I have no wants or needs, they do not exist. I welcome this as I know I cannot function any other way. I am hers. She owns me. She will restrain and punish me as she deems fit. I will sleep in her cage or on the floor at her whim.

For the next two nights Domina has commanded me to sleep in her cage as I have failed her. I failed to keep her house clean and failed to keep her dildo clean. I was genuinely sorry for this but of course Domina would hear no excuses.

I will beg her. I hate the cage. She will ignore me, but I will beg. I will beg with all my soul. I wish to be at her side, I hate the cage.

I hate the cage.

A Final Beginning

This is it. I am her slave. It's done and there is no turning back.

I know we've "rebooted" before, restarted or whatever. This is DIFFERENT. I know it is, I FEEL it, it HAS to be. I'm wearing my slave collar again. We've had our own personal collaring ceremony. Domina's attitude toward our lifestyle is different. She is more focused, more unrelentingly cruel, as she needs to be to keep her slave in line.

She is dedicated to being involved in a local community. Her greatest desires and fantasies are to humiliate and cuckold me. It makes her cock try to get hard and me fearful all at once. I am wearing the chastity, I am sitting on the floor at her feet, I am wearing the panties she picked out, I have done the laundry, I have done the dishes, I have slept on the floor, I will do nothing without her permission and it is euphoric.

Some of the rules will change, be more realistic to our lives but the core will remain the same- I AM HERS..FOREVER. She will brand me and tattoo me, mark me.

I have no idea when her cock will cum again and it doesn't matter. Her cock will never cum again if it was she desires. My wants, needs and desires mean nothing...though I need her to feel pleasure and want her desires be fulfilled. That is simply what should be. The rest of our lives begin now.

Mid-week punishments and pictures

I've had a mixed week serving Domina. I have done well in cleaning, laundry and preparing meals but unfortunately I have had a hard time with keeping all of my responsibilities straight. I've not gotten my panty pics on time every day and forgetten my collar some nights. Domina has been "helping" me remember for her. She's also been helping me prepare to try to the Ass of Spades again by shoving the other butt plug in my ass and making me keep it in all night. Every night since Sunday.

She let loose with her paddle and cane with the plug in my ass and also had my Hello Kitty panties stuffed in my mouth.

A quiet weekend

The MiL was in town this past week so it was a quiet one. This weekend has promise to be eventful. I know I have things for which I must atone. :( My chastity continues of course and Domina continues to plan our foray into the local scene which I am of course excited for and dreading at the same time!

An unusual week.

Last week was unusual in that there was a death in my family. Unfortunately my grandfather past away, not unexpected but still a bit of a shock. Domina and I actually kept to our lifestyle more than I thought we would. I had unfortuantely cum without permission earlier in the week however Domina realized that I needed release to help me relax and she allowed me to cum WITH permission later in the week. Going into the weekend however Domina did receive her new purchases from Extreme Restraints which included the new, most intimidating butt plug. I had not realized how intimidating. The Ass of Spades. I believe I tried to take it for her for a good 30 minutes even after she had loosened my ass with the other butt plug. I just couldn't make it work. She was able to cum while she watched me try to take it thankfully. Now the counter has reset. My resolve will be tested again, for much longer according to Domina.

I am ready.

Deprivation continues..

61 days. I think this is the longest Domina's cock has gone without cumming since her pet was in puberty. I am proud to endure it for her! I know she has made new purchases for her asswhore but I do not know what they are. I have had the current biggest butt plug in my ass two nights in a row this week. Just FYI, the stats on the biggest plug are 2.25" in diameter, 7.125 in circumference. I know Domina was looking for bigger than that as I provided her with options as instructed. She is out of town this weekend and her cock is locked away waiting for her return. Hopefully there will be more pics after Sunday night!

New session

Domina finally had me back in her dungeon...unfortunately it was too cold to have an extended session. Or I should say I was too much of a pussy for her to take the cold. But she had to become worried with my actual health and body temperature. She liked her new IKEA bed so much last time that she couldn't wait to have me strapped to it again...after she had me dressed in lingerie and made up as her panty boy. Thankfully she applied the makeup. :) After the little time in the basement she had me taking the Red Jelly Dong as her ass whore. I took it for her greedily!

I was EXTREMELY grateful that Domina allowed me to pleasure her two nights in a row! I begged very hard for the privelege!!! I'm very worried at the opportunities that she will afford me for this once we get more involved in the local scene. And just in case you were wondering, the cum counter is accurate and from Domina's hints it will be some time until she allows her cock to cum. :(