Pet gets a reward and Domina's new toy.

We didn't have a full training session over the weekend (I'm traveling again this week for the last time for a month thankfully) but Domina did give me my beatings for all of last week as well as a big surprise.

I was allowed to cum. Sort of. Domina loves to make me cum when I don't have permission as she knows I will try my absolute hardest not to and she loves to watch and hear me struggle. But the reward wasn't cumming asa she fucked me until I came in her pussy...and then I got my reward as she sat on my face and smothered me in my cum off and on for a good 5 minutes. It was wonderful!

Also, Domina has a new toy that she experimented with each night over the weekend. My question was- how much pain could a 9-volt battery cause? Apparently quite a bit. Domina purchased an e-stimm kit and wow. I was surprised at the pain. Domina had a wonderful time playing with the leads and clamps all over my ass, balls and her cock. Hopefully she'll take some pictures during future sessions!

Traveling again, Domina had a special task for her pet.

I am traveling again over this past weekend and this week. This trip Domina had a special command- I was not allowed to pack any panties. I had to go to Target and buy some pretty panties for the week. I've added pictures of some of what I bought plus what I was wearing for Domina today. I'm sure to Domina's chagrin there was no one in the panties section to watch me pick them out. But I always wonder what the person who checks me out thinks. :)

Saturday session and learning to let go.

Saturday we had a great training session. (First I have to admit that the bed from IKEA did not work out. Not only did I fuck it up, the screws that came with it were not working well. Domina was not pleased and I did pay for it) Domina is really settling into making me her panty boy sissy. It seems now that every time we have a session she has me dressing up for her in lingerie and heels. This time she took it a step further with having me apply my own make-up. Of course I looked ridiculous but that was part of her fun. Going forward however I was given instruction to learn how to put my own make-up on properly. "How can I take you anywhere with you looking like trash, pet? You'll learn to make yourself presentable so as not to embarass me." Once I had things hastily assembeled I barely looked like a passable street whore. I had on a black, lace corset with pink Candies, G-string panties and leggings that I didn't realize had runners in them as well as my sling-back heels. Domina just laughed (sorry, sometimes Domina doesn't care to take pics, otherwise this would have been a good one). After she inspected her cock, balls and ass (I did try and get her ass shaved) she reminded me of my responsibility to keep things shaved up at all times and not wait just before an anticipated training session. "NO MORE WARNINGS." she emphasized, grabbing her cock.

She then had me follow her downstairs to her dungeon where she immediately had me bent over a chair and pulled my panties down around my ankles. She shoved the enema in and went over and slammed the bucket on the ground. "Don't move until I tell you", she ordered. She spanked my ass a few times and then allowed me to release in front of her, panties still around my ankles squatting on the bucket with my heels on. I cleaned out the bucket and cleaned my ass for Domina. As soon as I came back down, I was bent over the chair again as Domina lubed up the big butt plug and started to shove it in. I hadn't taken it in some time so it took some effort and as soon as it got the apex I had to beg Domina to quickly shove it all the way in as it hurt so much. "Better get used to that slave, you'll have it in all night". She proceeded to use the rope to secure her cock and balls and tightened it to make sure the butt plug was shoved further up my ass. She had me strapped to the wall ass-out and began beating me. She did spend a lot of time with her new whip and loved to make sure it went up between my legs and slammed against my cock and balls. That.HURT. Then she had me turned around and I knew what was to come.

"20 strokes on your cock with the cane pet. And then you best be begging me for more". She slammed away with the cane and I was straining.

"Thank you Domina, please beat your cock more," I whimpered.

"Of course, pet." she smiled. 20 more.

"T-T-Thank you D-Domina,...please beat your cock more!," I yelped.

"If you insist." she stated. 20 more.

"...."

"PET?"

"THAKN YOU DOMINA!..........PLEASE BEAT YOUR COCK MORE!" I yelled through clenched teeth.

"Yes, pet. Yes", she was all business at this point. 20 more.

At this point I was ready for her to beat it all night and I begged for it. But she stopped. I really did not want anymore. Not.at.all. But I begged for it simply because I need Domina to push me. I could take more pain even if I didn't want it and I needed to show her that. Domina brought me down from the wall, took my ropes off and guided me upstairs. Wonderfully, she did some facesitting and I was able to sniff her asswhile she smothered me even though she kept her panties on (I always hope that Domina only showers in the mornings on the days she does training sessions as I love her smell).

Finally Domina was finished with me and was going to just use her largely endowed vibrator to cum. But I begged and begged to lick her pussy and she did allow it as she knows I do a good job at this thankfully. I knew what was coming next after she came on my face as she made true on her promise the night before as well. I was going in the cage again. I do not like the cage. At all. I can never be comfortable. I can never sleep well. Domina loves it.

Domina was turned on enough as she locked me in the cage that she fucked herself anyway and I had to listen to her cum by herself. :( I know that at some point I'll be living Domina's cuckold fantasy to the letter. She loves to live it with me while she masturbates....often. I still had the butt plug in as well (I think that was in for...6 hours) and Domina let me out in the wee hours of the morning as she was having trouble sleeping. Thankfully.

And now I am in chastity again and I'm sure on my way to being deprived more than ever before.

Can good come from bad?

I've been traveling again this week. Again, I hate that I cannot bring all that Domina would want me to due to security searches. But I do bring some things in checked luggage. This time it was some clothespins as you can see. She has me torture her cock by stroking it and using the clothespins in various places. Last night they were on the head of her cock and ripped off two different times. Tonight they were on my nipples and balls and ripped off as well.

As for the title for this post, I feel like something has really changed with Domina. We've had our stresses with staying the course as me being her pet but after my unacceptable behavior this past weekend things have defintely been different. For the better. She has been even more controlling and demanding and it's been wonderful. i need it so badly to submit to her. I truly do and it seems more obvious to her after my public bufoonery. She has to completely control her pet and train me to her desires. Take me by the bit. Take me by the balls.

She's already told me that I will be sleeping in the cage for the foreseeable future. I'm sure she'll use a lock since in my drunken stupidity I let myself out of the cage last weekend. Twice. :( I know she's been doing a lot of reading and research and I always fantasize in anticipation and fear about what she will be planning.

Oh! We also bought a bed from IKEA just for her dungeon which I will be putting together this weekend. Only a frame and slats. She doesn't want me to be comfortable of course. I'm sure that will appear in future pics.

Obedience to my Domina. What it means.

It means to not blatantly disobey your Domina. It means to respect and accept her decisions without thinking or questioning. It means to not get drunk at a community pool party and embarrass her. :( I should have listened to her and not disobeyed her. I went against everything that we are trying to build. This is how Domina had me after my indiscretions. Her cock tied tightly until it was purple. I don't why I did it. I truly need to submit to my Domina. I suppose it was partly due to us having some issues with our lifestyle over the last week, especially with my traveling. It's difficult to stay focused and in our lifestyle and some of those stresses came through this week. But I can only hope that good comes of my mistakes and that my Domina takes a firmer hand in her handling of her pet. I truly need her strict and firm discipline as I work on submitting to her. I'm sorry Domina. I love you Domina. I need you Domina.

FAILURE....again...

First I need to post the pics from our session a couple of weeks ago per Domina, before she gets too angry.

I've failed Domina again with orgasm. :(

She was training me again. A wonderful start. I had been traveling and I was back for the weekend for her first training session in a week. Again. And she was obviously horny. She wouldn't even let me clean up for her, "I expect you to be clean and shaven for me at anytime, pet". And she's right of course. She was dressed in all black, with a lace/leather teddy, no panties, stockings and calf-high boots. Devastatingly beautiful! She had her small-headed crop and was whacking away at me, chastising me. I was in different heels (that fit better!) and new panties that she had shopped for just that day. She quickly had me out of the heels and crawling in the cage....she'd been holding a special treat for me. As soon as she had me locked in, she was on top. straddling the cage. All I heard was, "Mmmmmm" and she let go.

It was a wonderful shower. She covered me in her piss, up and down my body, she'd been holding it for some time! Oh it felt incredible! I had to clean it up then wash myself off.

Next is when I failed her.

She had me my lying on the bed, and she straddled my face. She spent quite awhile smothering me and teasing her cock. It included clothespins on her balls which she would ceremoniously rip off while my mouth was suffocated by her pussy and my nose was smothered by her ass. It was so gloriously torturous! But then she wanted to be fucked.

:(

She ordered me to put on the cock sleeve, which is a more form fitting than the sheath. This takes me lubing up her cock and getting it on. I cried that I couldn't hold it, but she wanted it too badly. I had it on and was inside her......I tried to pull out and squueze it. But it was too late. 7 weeks of not cumming came crashing down on me.

I came. :(

It completely destroyed anything else Domina had planned. And destroyed our momentum. I was literally in tears this time. I was sobbing into my Domina. She allowed me to share her bed after this since she had been without a warm body for a week. I'm sure otherwise I's have been sleeping in the urine soaked cage.

At this point it is increasingly obvious to Domina that she cannot satisfy her need to deny her cock's orgasm and satisfy her need for fucking a real cock. I feel that I am a huge leap closer to being a cuckold. :(

Six weeks and our last training session!

Six week mark. I've made it to the six week mark again. Six weeks since Domina has allowed her cock to cum. It's a heady feeling. There is a constant, ever-present pressure in my groin. Especially with Domina teasing me or ordering me to stroke her cock and tease myself. I'm always thinking of her and what she wants to do with me which makes it a constant torture and challenge. I'm hoping that there will be no incidents and that I will continue my chastity for her for as long as she wishes. As I've said before, I'd rather her cock just stay locked up and not have to touch it. I know she won't stand for that. She'll have me release it since I am still traveling and have me stroke it to the breaking point (which takes all of about 30 seconds). And then she'll have me back for the weekend and the beatings will begin again.


There will be more this weekend. (And hopefully every weekend to come!)


This past weekend she had me in her dungeon once more. Wearing panties and a corset with high heels, she had "Panty Boy" written across my chest in lipstick. She had me strapped to the wall and beat her cock. She was reiterating her displeasure that I had forgotten my collar last week. By the end her cock was bleeding and bruised from her cane, though I keep expecting more. She also used the string of clothespins on my balls, which she yanked off and left drips of blood. She was very turned on by this. She beat my ass with whip, paddle and canes. Then she wrapped me in saran wrap, she'd not done this in some time, and had me waddle upstairs. Instead of allowing me to pleasure her, she wanted me writhing next to her while she fucked herself with her vibrator. She wanted me to get a taste of what it will be like being her cuckold. :( She came very hard thinking about this....and I was happy for her pleasure! Thankfully, she wanted me in her bed since I've been traveling so much and I was spared the cage again!