Punishment begins

It did not last terribly long, but it was intense, and it has just begun according to Domina. This is the punishment for cumming without permission, Domina is determined to train her cock.

She decided we would do tonights all in the beroom. First, I was inspected as usual, my chest I was allowed a pass on as I have had some irritation lately and had asked permission earlier to let it recover. Domina's balls did not pass however and I was immediately given 20 with the crop across my ass for this. Next Domina used the black rope to tightly bind her cock and balls. She loops the rope around my waist and up my ass so she can pull it as tight as possible. Her cock stands out straight and purple, and she loves it. She always giggles evily when it is tied up like this. I had PAIN TOY written across my ass in Sharpie as she does love to label for what she wants to do to me. Domina applied the wrist and ankle cuffs and ordered me to bend over the small wooden chair as she brought the bit-gag around my mouth, she knew I would need it. She started with the crop as a warm up and gave me quite a few and moved into the spatula. After a few strokes she asked "How many is that pet?" I paused. I hadn't been counting. "You don't know do you?" she stated more than asked. "No Domina," I whispered. "Oh well, we'll just start at one," she sang happily. The best part is when she was done beating me with the spatula, she never even asked how many, but it was a little over 100 times.

I was then ordered to my knees and to place my hands back and plant my face on the floor. She clasped my ankle and wrist cuffs together, placed one of the strands of four clothes pins on my chest and nipples, pushed me to the floor and put her foot on my face. "Keep your face on the floor fuck toy." she ordered. "These will stay on your balls for awhile," she laughed as she attached the other strand of 4 clothespins to my balls. I can't recall if she beat me more with the spatula or the crop but it was one of the two and then she moved to grab a cane.

After a few whacks and yelps from me she stated "I'll remove one clothespin after 20 strokes. Get ready and count them." These were hard to take (bent over like this the beatings hurt more as the flesh is more stretched out and a little less cushion there) and I certainly wasn't quiet, I was biting the bit quite hard. I was admonished and given some extra strokes a couple times for moving around too much which put the count of cane strokes well over 100. Domina was not finished beating my ass and pulled down the wood paddle. "Your night is not over yet Pain Toy, " she purred. "COUNT", she ordered and the paddle slammed home, 20, and again, 40, 50. Pause. SLAM, 60, 70, 90 100, 120. Finally Domina stopped. "On your knees!" As I raised she ripped the clothespins off my chest, I had forgotten about them and I yelped in pain. She laughed.

She sat in the chair and had me waddle over in my restrainsts. And began to whip the crop over the tip of her cock. Each time sets of ten that I had to count. Over and over and over. I don't know how many times, but I assume we got to 100. I was biting the bit soooo hard.

As I kneeled there whimpering she said "Now pet, you'll see that I have removed the doggie pillow from the cage to leave only the hard plastic tray. This is how you will be sleeping tonight, to help you remember to control my cock, on the hard plastic. Maybe you can earn the doggie pillow back. But you know what the tray is for don't you pet? Get in the cage." She locked me in after removing my cuffs and had me as close to one side as possible as she slid her panties off and stepped up on the chair and effectively squatted over me. I was waiting in great anticipation as she released her self on me. I know she enjoyed it immensely as she ordered me to piss on myself as well and watched intently. "You can wallow in that for a minute or two and then you will clean it up, shower yourself off and then I'll lock you back in for the night pet, " she stated.

And I have not had as uncomfortable night as that before. Domina's cock was throbbing, my ass was stinging and I had to sleep on the hard plastic. I want desperately to control Domina's cock for her. And as she said, this was only the beginning of my punishment...

Quiet until tonight

Domina and I have been very busy with life these past few days into the weekend. I have been allowed to sleep with her the last few nights but tonight will be an extended punishment session. I will of course be recounting it here tomorrow. It seems it may have a lot to do with the cage....

I.Have.No.Resolve

Being Domina's pet is extremely stimulating. Too stimulating, but I'll get to that in a moment. Last night Domina desired to try and fuck her cock again. I did last a little bit longer, but not nearly enough for her. She did allow me to make her cum with my mouth and lick her pussy! I was so excited! It did nothing to dissuade her from having me sleep in the cage again :(. I tried begging to no avail and this time it was all night. All night.

A note on sleeping in the cage: I can fit in the cage fine...as long as my legs are bent. So I have to sleep curled up like this and I have enough room to shift from side to side but my legs are always bent. By the time morning rolls around I desperately hope I do not wake up too much early than Domina as this is when it is most uncomfortable. By morning I am desperate to stretch my legs out but I cannot. I also hope I don't wake too early and have to pee as I will not risk waking Domina to ask permission. She would be quite angry if I woke her. Quite angry.

So, I slept all night in the cage and today Domina was not feeling well and worked from home. Sometime in the morning I came upstairs and she desired to pet me and allowed me to lay next to her. She began stroking her cock some and it felt so wonderful. Here is where my lack of any resolve comes in. I couldn't even control myself with her hand stroking her cock and I came. She was livid. I got beat with the spatula right there and now I am awaiting even greater punishment. I really don't know how to control the orgasm after not cumming for days. I've tried clinching and breathing. I just have to try harder for Domina.

I fear what will come from this. I know that I'll at least be in the cage again.

Back in the cage....

Last night Domina again wished to fuck her cock. Or at least try. I still have no control, certainly after not cumming for days. I wish so much to be able to have the stamina to at least last a few minutes for her but I am quite pitiful when it comes to being inside her. :( She had on very sexy lingerie and had her leash on my collar, holding it while she slid herself on her cock.

I lasted all of a few seconds.

She was quite angry and declared right then that I would be sleeping in the cage the next two nights. I begged and begged to no avail. She did allow me to aid in her orgasm by pleasuring her breasts. She does enjoy making me watch her cum but I know she wants to fuck her cock. She keeps threatening to bring in another cock that can actually satisfy her. I would of course be locked in the cage and forced to watch. I certainly don't wish this but I would endure it for her. I want nothing but her pleasure!

While helping her cum I thought of trying to prolong it in some way briefly, But I knew it was only a selfish thought to keep from going in the cage as long as possible so I of course did not act on the thoughts. I feel badly for even having them. :(

I reluctantly crawled to the cage last night and begged and begged not to go in but it only angered Domina and she kicked me a few times on my way in. I spent most of the night there but luckily Domina got restless and let me out as she wished to feel me next to her in my collar. I know thought that I will be back in tonight...

Getting back into it

Even though I wore the panties for Domina all weekend we couldn't really be in our comfort zone around others so much and being with our son in a hotel room. We had a good time of course but we were glad to be back

Last night I spent much of the evening sitting on Domina's lap in my panties and collar. She stroked her cock for a good 5 minutes solid too. I make a good lap dog for her! It also meant I got to share her bed last night as well. After I got my nightly beating worth of three nights in all at once. She certainly missed giving them to me. I am so happy to be in my collar and at her feet again. Also, it's been four days since she has allowed her pet to cum. I have no idea how long it will be this time, though I am still waiting to see what my punishment will be for cumming without permission the last time.

My place this week: end of the bed

As I expected I've been sleeping at Domina's feet in my collar and panties at the end of the bed all week. I am VERY thankful I haven't been back in the cage which I know I deserve. Domina went shopping tonight while I cared for our son. Lingerie shopping...for me. She bought a handful of new outrageous panty-boy panties for our trip this weekend. I can't wait to wear them for her! One pair is even crotchless so I will have no hope of containing anything. I'll have to do a fashion show for her, maybe she'll take pics!

A lull in the action

Domina and I had a weekend where, unfortunately we had to suspend our lifestyle activities. As I have said we are learning together how to integrate this into our lives and sometimes it is a real challenge. This weekend life interfered too much and we let ourselves slip out of it. We have talked extensively about this and how we can stay in our new found relationship. We will be put to the challenge again as we travel out of town this weekend with our son and another family. Our goal is to stay in it completely as we feel more connected and together when she is the Domina. The last couple of nights have consisted of us discussing things and getting back into groove so to speak. I have received nightly beatings and we are back on our way.

That being said I need to update on what happened Thursday night...

Epic fail. That is only how I can describe what happened. Domina was already being generous with herself and allowing me to aid in her orgasm again while she pleasured herself. But again, Domina wished to fuck her cock....I am worthless to her in this way as I once again could not handle the absolute joy of being inside her and came again without permission. She was pissed to say the least. She drug me off the bed and immediately threw me in the cage. I said nothing as there was nothing I could say. I failed her. Again. Even though we had our issues over the weekend I know I will still be punished very severely for last week. I know Domina has been doing research so I cannot imagine what will happen, it will only make it worse that I know the bulk of it won't come this weekend either. She may have something clever planned while we're out of town. I am trying to make up for it but work is getting im the way as well, another excuse I know she won't accept.