Domina's pet

Our first time..

2011-12-05T21:38:00.001-05:00

Domina and I visited a BDSM club/dungeon for the first this past Saturday. It was more of an information gathering and observation visit since neither of us had never been to one before. The club had an educational session followed by a demonstration of a violet wand as well as dungeon play afterward. I believe Domina was very interested as it would give her ample opportunity to revel in her slave's humiliation. They had many wonderful aspects to the main dungeon as well as several separate additional rooms. My mind was racing with the possibilities as I hoped Domina's was...spanking benches, suspension cube, a shower area, a chain web, so many ways for Domina to restrain me and beat me and humiliate me. I fantasized immediately about her taking me to the make-up room and dressing me as her panty boy and then leading me out on her leash to the main dungeon....I cannot wait to go back and I know Domina is fantasizing about it as well.

Back from the Holiday

2011-11-27T20:54:00.002-05:00

...and I am back at her feet, collar on and Domina with leash in hand and things are back to normal finally. We just returned home today and I couldn't wait to be groveling on the floor for her. Domina had her cock locked up all week and only unlocked it tonight for cleaning and she has decided to keep it unlocked for tonight. When this happens I am extremely fearful of having an accident as her cock is in new territory as far as abstinence is concerned. Her cock has never gone this long without cumming and the last thing I want is to disappoint her.

Also, I cannot contain my absolute joy, fear and anticipation for this Saturday. We are finally taking the step of attending a local lifestyle event. I cannot express what a wonderful and HUGE step this is for us and I can't wait..except I am also scared of what may happen from this point on. However that's what makes my submission to Domina meaningful. I will do whatever she asks no matter my trepidation. I am hers.

A HUGE distraction

2011-11-17T20:50:00.008-05:00

...but proud to say Domina and I are completely dedicated to me being her pet. I had to travel a few weeks ago and for the trip I had to pack a bag. This means that Domina always requires me to take some items with me and she really wanted me to work on the Ass of Spades butt plug that we have had for some time. I wanted more than anything to take this for Domina and I did to my great satisfaction...and unfortunately to my great disappointment and pain. It was too big and I was blind to it in my euphoria in taking more for my Domina. It caused me great pain and discomfort for weeks and I am still not 100% recovered but close. During all of this though we have never wavered, even with a weekend trip with friends where Domina allowed me to touch her. She even let me inside her which I was VERY thankful for since I never know when or where that will happen. Also, I know that she understood that I was in extreme pain and discomfort but that she was tracking all of the housework that she was being subjected to for future punishments. Thankfully I am now fully locked away again, able to perform my duties and spending the evenings at Domina's feet with my collar on and her leash attached and in hand.

And the cum counter is accurate. Domina's cock has not cum in almost 60 days and from Domina's comments she cannot see me doing anything to warrant her allowing it to happen any time soon. We will not get a chance to have a pet's punishment/Domina's pleasure session for a couple of weeks due to visiting family for the holiday.

I am also adding pics from the last pleasure session Domina had. She pulled out the clothespins for the first time in a long time and applied them to her cock. Also, she loves to dress me in lingerie even if it is just a top. I have to say it makes me excited when she does this as I am HER panty boy.

Back to Domina's basement

2011-10-24T21:13:00.004-04:00

This past week I spent half the nights sleeping at Domina's feet until she would get cold and allow me to warm her bed. On Saturday we finally returned to Domina's basement dungeon and she was quite excited to try out a new purchase. Domina had bought some new accessories for her E-Stim enjoyment, straps with contacts to wrap around her cock. Domina had me strapped to the wall and continually shocked her cock while beating my ass. It was quite a challenging experience and she was going to make sure of it. She spent A LOT of time beating my ass and thighs since she hadn't had me strapped down for so long. I bit down and took everything she wanted to give me...and then she turned me around and beat her cock as well. I know she is getting me ready to show off in front of others and must make sure I am truly her Pain Toy. I hope I have shown her that I am ready! I also treasured the rewards Domina gave me- sniffing her ass, sharing her bed and she even stroked her cock briefly the next morning before locking it back up!

It didn't last..

2011-10-15T17:28:00.003-04:00

My euphoria from earlier in the week didn't last. Domina looked a little closer at some of the other cleaning assignments she gave me and was most...displeased. I was back in the cage Wednesday night. I am not able to stay asleep in the cage all night, and I end up thrashing and shivering enough that Domina feels she must release me and allow me in to her bed to warm up and shut me up. She had to do this Wednesday night, decided to allow me in her bed Thursday to be rested for work but then had to repeat the process after locking me in last night. I KNOW she is tiring of this and I am afraid of what her solution will be. Will she move my cage elsewhere so she doesn't have to deal with me? I do know Domina will enjoy enacting her corporal punishments tonight.

A realization came crashing down on me this morning. Domina's bathroom has a stand-up shower with glass enclosure right next to the jacuzzi tub. Since we were in a hurry I was showering and Domina was bathing at the same time. She was reading a book and could not see me as I was standing there mesmerized by the site of her parted legs and pussy. It dawned on me that I hadn't actually been allowed to see her pussy in many weeks. I quickly turned my head and finshed my shower as Domina's cock strained against the chastity.

Cleaning for Domina and being rewarded!

2011-10-11T20:45:00.005-04:00

I had Monday off as a holiday and I was able to finish some tasks that Domina set for me. I worked HARD to get everything completed for her, I payed special attention to vacumming and wiping down the inside of Domina's car as she was adament this be done. I absolutely love being able to clean naked for her whenever possible. I only wish she was able to watch over me while I do it.

When she came home she checked on my work and leaned into my ear "I am VERY pleased with your work pet, you will be rewarded tonight". Oh, how happy I was!!!!!!

Later as I was kneeling at the side of her bed in my panties she revealed her reward for me. "Tonight slave not only do you get to sleep in my bed but you also get to fuck me with the big dick...Mmmmm" she purred. I couldn't have been happier! I could not ask for a better reward than having a hand in helping my Domina to orgasm! I even felt a little bold and begged if I could lick her pussy some before fucking her but she simply laughed "You haven't earned THAT much pet."

I'm satisified to say that I helped her cum twice with her favorite big cock. She came very hard and was very pleased. She even pulled me close and petted me for awhile. :) I've attached the picture of the kinda of dick Domina needs and the one she owns.

A Cock Beating.

2011-10-09T21:39:00.006-04:00

All Domina wished to do was to beat her cock. There was no counting, there was no "only this many more". There was simply her cane on her cock mixed in with some E-Stim.

I gritted my teeth on the ball ball gag and endured. I begged her for more every step of the way.

As promised I was locked in the cage again all night. She purchased new Master locks just for her cage.

Rule updates

2011-10-07T22:32:00.004-04:00

Domina has dictated some changes for her rules. While small in text changes they are significant in impact. Most assuredly she has made it clear to me that I have no wants or needs, they do not exist. I welcome this as I know I cannot function any other way. I am hers. She owns me. She will restrain and punish me as she deems fit. I will sleep in her cage or on the floor at her whim.

For the next two nights Domina has commanded me to sleep in her cage as I have failed her. I failed to keep her house clean and failed to keep her dildo clean. I was genuinely sorry for this but of course Domina would hear no excuses.

I will beg her. I hate the cage. She will ignore me, but I will beg. I will beg with all my soul. I wish to be at her side, I hate the cage.

I hate the cage.

A Final Beginning

2011-10-04T21:40:00.004-04:00

This is it. I am her slave. It's done and there is no turning back.

I know we've "rebooted" before, restarted or whatever. This is DIFFERENT. I know it is, I FEEL it, it HAS to be. I'm wearing my slave collar again. We've had our own personal collaring ceremony. Domina's attitude toward our lifestyle is different. She is more focused, more unrelentingly cruel, as she needs to be to keep her slave in line.

She is dedicated to being involved in a local community. Her greatest desires and fantasies are to humiliate and cuckold me. It makes her cock try to get hard and me fearful all at once. I am wearing the chastity, I am sitting on the floor at her feet, I am wearing the panties she picked out, I have done the laundry, I have done the dishes, I have slept on the floor, I will do nothing without her permission and it is euphoric.

Some of the rules will change, be more realistic to our lives but the core will remain the same- I AM HERS..FOREVER. She will brand me and tattoo me, mark me.

I have no idea when her cock will cum again and it doesn't matter. Her cock will never cum again if it was she desires. My wants, needs and desires mean nothing...though I need her to feel pleasure and want her desires be fulfilled. That is simply what should be. The rest of our lives begin now.

Mid-week punishments and pictures

2011-02-16T21:59:00.005-05:00

I've had a mixed week serving Domina. I have done well in cleaning, laundry and preparing meals but unfortunately I have had a hard time with keeping all of my responsibilities straight. I've not gotten my panty pics on time every day and forgetten my collar some nights. Domina has been "helping" me remember for her. She's also been helping me prepare to try to the Ass of Spades again by shoving the other butt plug in my ass and making me keep it in all night. Every night since Sunday.

She let loose with her paddle and cane with the plug in my ass and also had my Hello Kitty panties stuffed in my mouth.

A quiet weekend

2011-02-08T21:27:00.002-05:00

The MiL was in town this past week so it was a quiet one. This weekend has promise to be eventful. I know I have things for which I must atone. :( My chastity continues of course and Domina continues to plan our foray into the local scene which I am of course excited for and dreading at the same time!

An unusual week.

2011-02-01T22:00:00.004-05:00

Last week was unusual in that there was a death in my family. Unfortunately my grandfather past away, not unexpected but still a bit of a shock. Domina and I actually kept to our lifestyle more than I thought we would. I had unfortuantely cum without permission earlier in the week however Domina realized that I needed release to help me relax and she allowed me to cum WITH permission later in the week. Going into the weekend however Domina did receive her new purchases from Extreme Restraints which included the new, most intimidating butt plug. I had not realized how intimidating. The Ass of Spades. I believe I tried to take it for her for a good 30 minutes even after she had loosened my ass with the other butt plug. I just couldn't make it work. She was able to cum while she watched me try to take it thankfully. Now the counter has reset. My resolve will be tested again, for much longer according to Domina.

I am ready.

Deprivation continues..

2011-01-21T23:10:00.003-05:00

61 days. I think this is the longest Domina's cock has gone without cumming since her pet was in puberty. I am proud to endure it for her! I know she has made new purchases for her asswhore but I do not know what they are. I have had the current biggest butt plug in my ass two nights in a row this week. Just FYI, the stats on the biggest plug are 2.25" in diameter, 7.125 in circumference. I know Domina was looking for bigger than that as I provided her with options as instructed. She is out of town this weekend and her cock is locked away waiting for her return. Hopefully there will be more pics after Sunday night!

New session

2011-01-17T21:26:00.015-05:00

Domina finally had me back in her dungeon...unfortunately it was too cold to have an extended session. Or I should say I was too much of a pussy for her to take the cold. But she had to become worried with my actual health and body temperature. She liked her new IKEA bed so much last time that she couldn't wait to have me strapped to it again...after she had me dressed in lingerie and made up as her panty boy. Thankfully she applied the makeup. :) After the little time in the basement she had me taking the Red Jelly Dong as her ass whore. I took it for her greedily!

I was EXTREMELY grateful that Domina allowed me to pleasure her two nights in a row! I begged very hard for the privelege!!! I'm very worried at the opportunities that she will afford me for this once we get more involved in the local scene. And just in case you were wondering, the cum counter is accurate and from Domina's hints it will be some time until she allows her cock to cum. :(

Mini-session...

2011-01-10T21:45:00.003-05:00

I'll start by saying that Domina has been keen on keeping up with her rules which I very much need and desire. I've been beaten every night as well as half the nights she has shoved the butt plug and had me sleep with it in all night. She chuckles about stretching my ass out to take more. She has in fact ordered me to find out the diameter of my current, biggest plug and find others that are bigger...

I know Domina wanted very much to put me through a major punishment session this past weekend but she was feeling ill and was just not physically up to it. But she did make sure to to give me a reminder and did have me in a wonderful tie. She enjoyed herself by sitting on my face over and over again and allowed me, after MUCH begging, to stick my tongue in her ass! Of course just as soon as my tongue grazed her ass, she stopped me..."Oh pet, don't think that I'll allow you to lick my ass without something in yours." And she promptly shoved the butt plug back into may ass. She then gave me as much a beating as she felt up to, the pic is the morning after with the plug still in my ass.

Panty pics from last week.

2011-01-08T21:45:00.009-05:00

I had a request to post pics of the panties Domina chooses for me and she has given me permission to do so. I'm required to send her pics every work day anyway and she was all too eager to put her panty boy on display. Though I will be lacking a day this week as I forgot one night to present panties to her so I wasn't allowed to wear any that day. Of course you can see that I have the chastity on 24/7. Please comment more as Domina likes to see that others are enjoying my embarrassment!

Domina's strict control. Needed and welcomed!

2011-01-07T21:56:00.007-05:00

To begin after the holidays Domina reviewed her rules and increased their intensity for now.

-She is reinstituting her nightly beatings for now. I am to present her with her crop and a cane each night.
-I am to present her with panty options every night so she may pick them for the next day.
-I am to pick up my efforts to keep the house picked and clean for her
-I am to increase my efforts to please her so that I may wear the true slave collar by the end of January

Her most severe punishment for my most recent failures against her commands while she was away is that she will be breaking her cock's "record" for cumming. Her cock will be going much longer than the 7 week mark before. The most that she has done was to unlock it once recently in which she proceeded to tease it by barely touch it with her hands and then rub against it with her wonderful body.

I have already slept on the floor almost every night since the new year (at least to begin with each night, Thankfully Domina gets cold and has me join her bed in the middle of the night) due to her displeasure with me. She also forced the biggest butt plug into my ass and had me keep it in all night for one night.

Domina has relayed her many fantasies of me as her panty boy cuckold. I look forward to her fantasies VERY much. I know she needs a real cock to fuck as she makes sure to remind me. :)

Looking forward to the next few days..

2010-12-28T21:09:00.005-05:00

Domina will return tomorrow and we will have a few days alone. I am looking forward to it greatly. I can't wait to be in my panties at her feet, I can't wait to serve her, I hope I get the opportunity to please her. And of course I am fearing it greatly. It's been awhile since an extended punishment session and I have much to pay for. The anticipation is crushing!

I also wanted to make comment on chastity. I know I need it. I know I need Domina to keep her cock locked up so that I am begging her to just touch it. I cherish the weekly cleanings when Domina allows me an erection, though she rarely touches it she allows me to stroke it for a short period of time. As time goes on it is more and more of a challenge. If you are a male and have ever gone an extended time without cumming you can understand a bit, to me it feels like a constant pressure in my loins. A constant need for release. I hate the "blue balls" descriptor as to me the feeling is deeper than that. I am ecstatic to take this for Domina and I am glad that my frustration pleases her. I ONLY wish to please her! I need her to push me in my devotion to her!

Waiting for her to come home!

2010-12-27T00:13:00.004-05:00

i am home from our family vacation and family holidays. I came home before Domina as I have to get back to work earlier. I am to get the house in order for her return and I am excited to do so. I hope she has some kinky demands of me while I'm home alone! The last couple of weeks have been tough as they have been bereft of our lifestyle mostly, except that I have had the chastity on almost 24/7. Only exceptions have been for airport security. This has helped tremendously since we cannot actually fully live our lifestyle around family. This means that currently Domina's cock cum counter is accurate. Domina's cock has not been allowed to cum for over a month now. The longest I have gone has been seven weeks. Domina asked me this a couple days ago.

"what's the longest my cock has gone without cumming pet?"

"7 weeks Domina", was my answer.

"Hmmm..." was all I got in return.

:(

We will have some alone time this week but I would expect I will not be punished for my transgressions while she was away for work until Saturday or Sunday night as we will be attending a mainstream New Years party Friday night.

Holidays

2010-12-14T18:27:00.007-05:00

We are always on the go during the holidays, but more so this year especially since we will have to travel for Christmas as we have moved away from family. Also, Domina had to travel for a week for work recently. Because of that my only opportunities have been to serve Domina on a day-to-day basis and we have not had any weekend time. I did fail her most severely while she was away and she has some wicked punishments in mind however she won't be able to fully enact them for a couple of weeks. We will have at least a couple of days into New Year's Eve that we will be sans our son and I'm sure she's looking forward to this! I'm very hopeful that we will be able to keep our lifestyle moving forward after the New Year, but more on that later. Oh, I did forget that we will both be home alone this Friday as I pack everything for our trip per her instructions, at least I can prance around for her in my panties then! Here are a couple more pics from the last training session.

More on our session

2010-12-01T20:18:00.014-05:00

Domina was happy to have her new bed setup for our session. She had my bowels cleaned out and had me strapped down for the duration in one way or another. She greatly enjoyed using her E-Stim for as long as was safe for not causing permanent damage. She loved strapping my legs down over my head and scribing ASS WHORE across my exposed ass. She was pleasantly surprised that I was able to take the butt plug after a long break with only her saliva for lube. I was surprised too, but then all I could do was pull on my restraints as she shoved it in!

It's been a while.

2010-11-28T21:59:00.005-05:00

Domina and I have had challenges over the last few months. It is not easy to keep up our lifestyle while still maintaining a "normal" life. These things have interfered greatly with keeping up with our fetish. Hopefully we have found ways to deal with the issues that face us. We have again rededicated ourselves to our endeavor. I need to be her pet and she needs me to be her pet. We just need to find how to keep ourselves dedicated to our lifestyle. Domina has dedicated herself to enforcing her rules, especially the rules that ensure I do not make eye contact or speak without spoken to. She knows I am beneath her and will make doubly sure that I know it. We recently had another session where she began anew making sure I know my place. This included her new bed from IKEA that I put together for her. I will add more from this session as I am required now to make sure my blog is updated at least twice a week.

Pet gets a reward and Domina's new toy.

2010-09-28T20:11:00.003-04:00

We didn't have a full training session over the weekend (I'm traveling again this week for the last time for a month thankfully) but Domina did give me my beatings for all of last week as well as a big surprise.

I was allowed to cum. Sort of. Domina loves to make me cum when I don't have permission as she knows I will try my absolute hardest not to and she loves to watch and hear me struggle. But the reward wasn't cumming asa she fucked me until I came in her pussy...and then I got my reward as she sat on my face and smothered me in my cum off and on for a good 5 minutes. It was wonderful!

Also, Domina has a new toy that she experimented with each night over the weekend. My question was- how much pain could a 9-volt battery cause? Apparently quite a bit. Domina purchased an e-stimm kit and wow. I was surprised at the pain. Domina had a wonderful time playing with the leads and clamps all over my ass, balls and her cock. Hopefully she'll take some pictures during future sessions!

Traveling again, Domina had a special task for her pet.

2010-09-20T20:07:00.004-04:00

I am traveling again over this past weekend and this week. This trip Domina had a special command- I was not allowed to pack any panties. I had to go to Target and buy some pretty panties for the week. I've added pictures of some of what I bought plus what I was wearing for Domina today. I'm sure to Domina's chagrin there was no one in the panties section to watch me pick them out. But I always wonder what the person who checks me out thinks. :)

Saturday session and learning to let go.

2010-09-12T20:06:00.008-04:00

Saturday we had a great training session. (First I have to admit that the bed from IKEA did not work out. Not only did I fuck it up, the screws that came with it were not working well. Domina was not pleased and I did pay for it) Domina is really settling into making me her panty boy sissy. It seems now that every time we have a session she has me dressing up for her in lingerie and heels. This time she took it a step further with having me apply my own make-up. Of course I looked ridiculous but that was part of her fun. Going forward however I was given instruction to learn how to put my own make-up on properly. "How can I take you anywhere with you looking like trash, pet? You'll learn to make yourself presentable so as not to embarass me." Once I had things hastily assembeled I barely looked like a passable street whore. I had on a black, lace corset with pink Candies, G-string panties and leggings that I didn't realize had runners in them as well as my sling-back heels. Domina just laughed (sorry, sometimes Domina doesn't care to take pics, otherwise this would have been a good one). After she inspected her cock, balls and ass (I did try and get her ass shaved) she reminded me of my responsibility to keep things shaved up at all times and not wait just before an anticipated training session. "NO MORE WARNINGS." she emphasized, grabbing her cock.

She then had me follow her downstairs to her dungeon where she immediately had me bent over a chair and pulled my panties down around my ankles. She shoved the enema in and went over and slammed the bucket on the ground. "Don't move until I tell you", she ordered. She spanked my ass a few times and then allowed me to release in front of her, panties still around my ankles squatting on the bucket with my heels on. I cleaned out the bucket and cleaned my ass for Domina. As soon as I came back down, I was bent over the chair again as Domina lubed up the big butt plug and started to shove it in. I hadn't taken it in some time so it took some effort and as soon as it got the apex I had to beg Domina to quickly shove it all the way in as it hurt so much. "Better get used to that slave, you'll have it in all night". She proceeded to use the rope to secure her cock and balls and tightened it to make sure the butt plug was shoved further up my ass. She had me strapped to the wall ass-out and began beating me. She did spend a lot of time with her new whip and loved to make sure it went up between my legs and slammed against my cock and balls. That.HURT. Then she had me turned around and I knew what was to come.

"20 strokes on your cock with the cane pet. And then you best be begging me for more". She slammed away with the cane and I was straining.

"Thank you Domina, please beat your cock more," I whimpered.

"Of course, pet." she smiled. 20 more.

"T-T-Thank you D-Domina,...please beat your cock more!," I yelped.

"If you insist." she stated. 20 more.

"...."

"PET?"

"THAKN YOU DOMINA!..........PLEASE BEAT YOUR COCK MORE!" I yelled through clenched teeth.

"Yes, pet. Yes", she was all business at this point. 20 more.

At this point I was ready for her to beat it all night and I begged for it. But she stopped. I really did not want anymore. Not.at.all. But I begged for it simply because I need Domina to push me. I could take more pain even if I didn't want it and I needed to show her that. Domina brought me down from the wall, took my ropes off and guided me upstairs. Wonderfully, she did some facesitting and I was able to sniff her asswhile she smothered me even though she kept her panties on (I always hope that Domina only showers in the mornings on the days she does training sessions as I love her smell).

Finally Domina was finished with me and was going to just use her largely endowed vibrator to cum. But I begged and begged to lick her pussy and she did allow it as she knows I do a good job at this thankfully. I knew what was coming next after she came on my face as she made true on her promise the night before as well. I was going in the cage again. I do not like the cage. At all. I can never be comfortable. I can never sleep well. Domina loves it.

Domina was turned on enough as she locked me in the cage that she fucked herself anyway and I had to listen to her cum by herself. :( I know that at some point I'll be living Domina's cuckold fantasy to the letter. She loves to live it with me while she masturbates....often. I still had the butt plug in as well (I think that was in for...6 hours) and Domina let me out in the wee hours of the morning as she was having trouble sleeping. Thankfully.

And now I am in chastity again and I'm sure on my way to being deprived more than ever before.

Can good come from bad?

2010-09-09T22:37:00.002-04:00

I've been traveling again this week. Again, I hate that I cannot bring all that Domina would want me to due to security searches. But I do bring some things in checked luggage. This time it was some clothespins as you can see. She has me torture her cock by stroking it and using the clothespins in various places. Last night they were on the head of her cock and ripped off two different times. Tonight they were on my nipples and balls and ripped off as well.

As for the title for this post, I feel like something has really changed with Domina. We've had our stresses with staying the course as me being her pet but after my unacceptable behavior this past weekend things have defintely been different. For the better. She has been even more controlling and demanding and it's been wonderful. i need it so badly to submit to her. I truly do and it seems more obvious to her after my public bufoonery. She has to completely control her pet and train me to her desires. Take me by the bit. Take me by the balls.

She's already told me that I will be sleeping in the cage for the foreseeable future. I'm sure she'll use a lock since in my drunken stupidity I let myself out of the cage last weekend. Twice. :( I know she's been doing a lot of reading and research and I always fantasize in anticipation and fear about what she will be planning.

Oh! We also bought a bed from IKEA just for her dungeon which I will be putting together this weekend. Only a frame and slats. She doesn't want me to be comfortable of course. I'm sure that will appear in future pics.

Obedience to my Domina. What it means.

2010-09-06T22:32:00.005-04:00

It means to not blatantly disobey your Domina. It means to respect and accept her decisions without thinking or questioning. It means to not get drunk at a community pool party and embarrass her. :( I should have listened to her and not disobeyed her. I went against everything that we are trying to build. This is how Domina had me after my indiscretions. Her cock tied tightly until it was purple. I don't why I did it. I truly need to submit to my Domina. I suppose it was partly due to us having some issues with our lifestyle over the last week, especially with my traveling. It's difficult to stay focused and in our lifestyle and some of those stresses came through this week. But I can only hope that good comes of my mistakes and that my Domina takes a firmer hand in her handling of her pet. I truly need her strict and firm discipline as I work on submitting to her. I'm sorry Domina. I love you Domina. I need you Domina.

FAILURE....again...

2010-08-29T22:10:00.010-04:00

First I need to post the pics from our session a couple of weeks ago per Domina, before she gets too angry.

I've failed Domina again with orgasm. :(

She was training me again. A wonderful start. I had been traveling and I was back for the weekend for her first training session in a week. Again. And she was obviously horny. She wouldn't even let me clean up for her, "I expect you to be clean and shaven for me at anytime, pet". And she's right of course. She was dressed in all black, with a lace/leather teddy, no panties, stockings and calf-high boots. Devastatingly beautiful! She had her small-headed crop and was whacking away at me, chastising me. I was in different heels (that fit better!) and new panties that she had shopped for just that day. She quickly had me out of the heels and crawling in the cage....she'd been holding a special treat for me. As soon as she had me locked in, she was on top. straddling the cage. All I heard was, "Mmmmmm" and she let go.

It was a wonderful shower. She covered me in her piss, up and down my body, she'd been holding it for some time! Oh it felt incredible! I had to clean it up then wash myself off.

Next is when I failed her.

She had me my lying on the bed, and she straddled my face. She spent quite awhile smothering me and teasing her cock. It included clothespins on her balls which she would ceremoniously rip off while my mouth was suffocated by her pussy and my nose was smothered by her ass. It was so gloriously torturous! But then she wanted to be fucked.

She ordered me to put on the cock sleeve, which is a more form fitting than the sheath. This takes me lubing up her cock and getting it on. I cried that I couldn't hold it, but she wanted it too badly. I had it on and was inside her......I tried to pull out and squueze it. But it was too late. 7 weeks of not cumming came crashing down on me.

I came. :(

It completely destroyed anything else Domina had planned. And destroyed our momentum. I was literally in tears this time. I was sobbing into my Domina. She allowed me to share her bed after this since she had been without a warm body for a week. I'm sure otherwise I's have been sleeping in the urine soaked cage.

At this point it is increasingly obvious to Domina that she cannot satisfy her need to deny her cock's orgasm and satisfy her need for fucking a real cock. I feel that I am a huge leap closer to being a cuckold. :(

Six weeks and our last training session!

2010-08-25T20:45:00.002-04:00

Six week mark. I've made it to the six week mark again. Six weeks since Domina has allowed her cock to cum. It's a heady feeling. There is a constant, ever-present pressure in my groin. Especially with Domina teasing me or ordering me to stroke her cock and tease myself. I'm always thinking of her and what she wants to do with me which makes it a constant torture and challenge. I'm hoping that there will be no incidents and that I will continue my chastity for her for as long as she wishes. As I've said before, I'd rather her cock just stay locked up and not have to touch it. I know she won't stand for that. She'll have me release it since I am still traveling and have me stroke it to the breaking point (which takes all of about 30 seconds). And then she'll have me back for the weekend and the beatings will begin again.

There will be more this weekend. (And hopefully every weekend to come!)

This past weekend she had me in her dungeon once more. Wearing panties and a corset with high heels, she had "Panty Boy" written across my chest in lipstick. She had me strapped to the wall and beat her cock. She was reiterating her displeasure that I had forgotten my collar last week. By the end her cock was bleeding and bruised from her cane, though I keep expecting more. She also used the string of clothespins on my balls, which she yanked off and left drips of blood. She was very turned on by this. She beat my ass with whip, paddle and canes. Then she wrapped me in saran wrap, she'd not done this in some time, and had me waddle upstairs. Instead of allowing me to pleasure her, she wanted me writhing next to her while she fucked herself with her vibrator. She wanted me to get a taste of what it will be like being her cuckold. :( She came very hard thinking about this....and I was happy for her pleasure! Thankfully, she wanted me in her bed since I've been traveling so much and I was spared the cage again!

More Travel

2010-08-19T23:49:00.002-04:00

Domina has not been happy with my traveling. Last weekend she took me to her dungeon for the first time in the new house! I will post pics that she took from from that encounter later. She simply beat me for having to do things she shouldn't have to do. She hasn't had the time to find any other slaves to take my place while I'm gone yet. I know when she does she will have me watch her over video chat being serviced.

I was traveling again this week and can only expect more of the same this weekend. This week she was particularly upset that I forgot my PET collar. She did have me bring high heels so that I can practice walking in them as her panty boy. I've had the chastity on for the most part but she again had me take it off and stroke her cock which, again, is a special kind of torture since it has been 5 weeks since her cock has cum. :( She'll also be pissed that I haven't been blogging as frequently as she wants due to how busy I have been with work.

Thankfully I was able to pleasure her last weekend with my tongue and hope to do so again. Thankfully she loves to have my tongue buried in her ass while she cums!

Travel

2010-08-12T23:01:00.002-04:00

i've had to travel a lot for work lately. Domina has made sure i take the chastity with me in checked baggage. I can't risk wearing it through airport security. As well as packing only panties to wear. I had it on all this week until last when Domina wished to torture by making me stroke her cock while she masturbated. I also had nimple clamps which was much fun ! At this point though I'd rather b locked up 24/7 and have nothing to do with Domina's cock but that's why she does it. :) She was finished last night and ordered me to continue for 15 mins. I begged her no! and she replied no. now it was 20 mins.

I learned that lesson...I hope...

I truly hope to be in Domina's new dungeon this weekend!!!

A day spent cleaning for Domina!

2010-07-25T18:08:00.002-04:00

I spent today cleaning and getting ready for Domina's return. She has been away this weekend and I have been waiting all weekend for her return. I had a list of chores to do while she was away (cleaning bathrooms, making beds, clean kitchen, laundry). I sent a pic of me doing this naked and that pleased her at least! She will get back late unfortunately and she will not likely wish to do anything with her pet. :(

Oh, I did have to confess to Domina that I used bathroom without permission earlier in the weekend. She ordered me to sleep on the floor for the duration of her absence and that she would decide what to do with me when she get home.

Here's my little pet collar!

About Chastity...

2010-07-24T01:53:00.017-04:00

I LOVE wearing chastity for Domina. It validates her control over her cock and I love it. Unfortunately I could remove the device if I truly wanted to, but I would never do so.

But because I love bondage so much, I wish I had no choice. Even though there are tighter rings (I could still remove her cock from these at its most flacid state) I don't wear them on a daily basis as Domina wants the option having a warm body in her bed without disruption. If I wear the tighter rings, they constrict my balls so much that it wakes me up. and therefore wakes her up She does have this available as punishment though. And since Domina gave me permission to post pics of her cock, here it is:

A real training session again!

2010-07-21T22:05:00.003-04:00

Finally on Sunday we had the opportunity for a real training session! Backing up a little bit to Thursday Domina really ratcheted things up. She had promised that I would receive 50 with the cane for the next 5 nights for cumming without permission (I was thankful as I felt I was getting off lite). Then I failed to send her a picture of my panties as I am required when she does not see them in the mornings (+50) and I couldn't send it right away after she ordered me too (+50).

150 strokes and I had only taken one caning the night before in the last 6 months. Needless to say Domina had me restrained over the chair in her bedroom and my ass and the back of my thighs looked like one big bruised welt. (I had my panties stuffed in my mouth for good measure). I also got 50 the very next night on top of it.

But Sunday night. I cleaned up and shaved and came out of the bathroom...and Domina looked fantastic. In a lace and leather teddy with her hair tied tight in a pony tail standing in black, 5" heels. I fell to my knees, kissing her feet enthusiastically. She immediately launched into working on her positions for me. Attention, Inspection, Kneeling Inspection (my favorite since it requires me to bend over and spread my ass cheeks for her) and Greeting. I'm sure she's kept the list short as she doesn't believe I can handle more right now.

Domina then completely cleaned my ass by shaving it hairless and cleaning me out with an enema. At least I was able to use the toilet and not shit in a bucket (though I'm sure that's coming). She proceeded to beat my ass with the paddle and then caned it mercilessly. It burned as it had already been bruised and battered. I was restrained with the wrist cuffs and just bent over standing and latched to the ankle cuffs for this.

She then had me on my back and gave me her special treat for the rest of the evening, she took out the big butt plug, lubed it up and slid it in my ass. Thankfully she was slow with it. After she pushed it in she crawled on top and sat on my face while slapping my balls with her crop. Oh how I've needed this training! She then beat me with the paddle more with the butt plus still in my ass.

Finally Domina allowed me to lick her pussy and make her cum! And oh how I ate her cum! It was amazing having the butt plug in while bringing her to climax, I hope to be able to take bigger and bigger things in my ass for her!

She had me remove the plug and then made me sleep at the foot of her bed. I love my Domina and can't wait to be in her dungeon again and continue my training!

I almost made it to six weeks....

2010-07-14T20:16:00.003-04:00

Last night Domina unlocked her cock. Her cock had been in chastity for a week straight and as I said, I hadn't cum in almost six weeks. I was afraid the moment she unlocked it.

It was instantly hard as I cleaned it for her. And then she ordered me to eat her pussy and make her cum. Which I of course relsihed and licked her as well as I could. Her cock was stiff and I was sure if I rubbed it against the bed too much I would cum without control. And then she came. Hard.

"Now. Stick my cock in me pet," she purred. I whimpered. "I want to be fucked. DO.IT." I relented and put it inside her. It was...electric. The pleasure shot through me like a bolt. It was too much but I didn't want to disappoint her! I tried but couldn't even get enough for a real thrust. I pulled out whimpering. I wasn't even inside her when she siad "fucking useless pet. 6 more weeks!" And that was it. The feel of her pussy, the sound of her stern voice...I started to cum. I couldn't squeeze hard enough to hold it back. "Fine. Put it inside me pet." And I put it inside her sobbing. Oh god was it magnificient but I absolutely hated it. I was almost in real tears. I didn't want it like that. I wanted to to do it on her orders, I wanted to not cum for as long as she desired. I wanted her to take her cock out for beatings after I'd not cum for weeks because it pleases her.

I didn't want it that way. Now, I have no idea how long it will before she lets her cock cum again. I'm sure she won't be letting it inside her anytime soon.

At least not without a cock sheath of some sort. I know she's been coveting one...

GULP!

2010-07-08T22:35:00.002-04:00

Domina loves to groom her pet. To a point. She loves to make me lay across her lap an use tweezers to make sure I look presentable- on my ears, eyebrows, neck, etc. I still have to take care of most the grooming such as shaving. One thing I have to to take care of as she disdains it the "butt tuft". I am not a hairy person but I have a tuft of hair that grows at the very point of the small of my back at the beginning of the crack of my butt. The butt tuft. I had neglected this and after having me lay across the bed while she beat my ass Domina obviously noticed.

"Get me some scissors pet," she ordered. I didn't know where any were so I bounded donwstairs to search and thankfully found some quickly. She proceeded to have my lie down on my stomach again and swiftly trimmed it up while admonishing me for it.

"On your knees slut. Open your mouth," she commanded. I did. And was greeted with a mouthful of my own asshair.....

I was eating my asshair. I begged Domina to wash my mouth out- "NO. But you can wash it down with some water."

Which I did- GULP!

I won't forget again!

Another word on serving my Domina

2010-07-07T19:45:00.002-04:00

I am hoping this happens much more often, but I was able to be home before Domina yesterday and was very happy for it. I enjoyed so much checking in with her and getting her direction while she was at work. I moved the dishes along, picked up around the house, played with our son while waiting on Domina. I was able to greet her and take her bag and other items (I even got to open the door for her ). She got to go right to the living room and sit down and talk with our son while I sat at her feet and massaged them! Later on in the night I got to curl up naked at the foot of her bed while she rubbed my head with her feet. <3

Wow. We're still so busy and it's been how long since I was allowed to cum?

2010-07-06T20:49:00.002-04:00

So I expected to be updating much more than this but obviously life is still not allowing it. We have still been struggling with being in our lifestyle and getting things together in our new home. I've been dealing with securing a new job and thankfully that has worked out.

Domina was very aggressive with the nightly spankings at first but unfortunately that has waned. I am trying to help her deal with her stress and take the load off of her by doing all the domestic chores as much as possible- which she expects of her pet. It is getting better as last night showed.

Domina had me bent over a chair with my wrist cuffs clamped together and wailed away with her hairbrush. It had been awhile since I'd had a beating and I was doing some wailing of a different sort. I so wanted her to continue as I know it can be therapeutic for her.

The one aspect that Domina has not relented in is controlling her cock. I haven't cum since June 3rd, more than a month now. This is longer than I can ever remember going without orgasm and I am struggling mightily. As with all aspects of submission I enjoy the suffering but truly wish to cum. At this point I would gladly do ANYTHING for Domina if I was allowed to cum. :( I have been wearing the chastity for Domina most of the time. She unlocks it only when I take our son swimming or for her own purposes. Which is to say to stroke her cock as a form of torture.

Hopefully I will have some more colorful things to post about soon!!!

Weekend away

2010-06-06T20:00:00.003-04:00

Our son is staying with family for a couple of weeks which is also why we picked this time to reboot our lifestyle. We took a road trip to a casino (not vegas unfortunately) and took along the toys that Domina wanted.

This included a couple of butt plugs that I had inserted for her over video chat for her before as well as the paddle and her crops. Domina was tenuous with beating me for fear that her pussy-boy would make too much noise even with the ball gag in. Instead she had me stroke her pussy (OMG SO HAPPY!) until she came but when she did she clamped her nails down on my balls as she did. Since her cock was straining against the chastity it made for an unreal sensation!!! After she came she had me lie on the bed and start to insert the butt plugs. I REALLY wanted her to do this but she wanted to watch while I did it. I don't know how big the larger one is but it is always a challenge to get in. It took me just a couple of minutes to get it in for her though, I was very excited to do it in front of her instead of over the intarwebz :D!!! I absolutely LOVED fucking my ass for her with the bigger butt plug, I was in painful ecstasy!!!! I would have fucked my ass for her all night long. She let me sleep in her bed because I did such a good job for her! I <3 my Domina!!

FINALLY!! I GET MY DOMINA BACK!!

2010-06-03T21:12:00.004-04:00

Whew!

It has been sooooo long. We obviously have been in involved in serious life movement. And I do mean MOVEment. New City. New State. It's been a long, long road and we still have more to do with the move. But thankfully Domina has decided we needed to be back into our lifestyle and I couldn't agree MORE!!!

We did do some things over the last few months but nothing 24/7 like we wanted. We were even apart for extended periods. We did some things over video chat which I enjoyed very much (and hope we expand on) but it was never what we completely needed.

Last night we began anew and there are some changes involved. We started by reviewing Domina's rules for her pet. The biggest change is that I will be wearing a chastity device for Domina. I will hope to add pictures soon. Also Domina has determined that with my behavior over the last few months that I do not deserve to wear her slave collar and I will wear an interim collar until I prove myself under her training. I will be trying my best to please her!!

Domina had her wooden paddle and her two crops out for her pet last night. After we reviewed the rules she had me bent over the bed and and reiterated that my nightly spanking will be done with the paddle at the very least from now on. I was not prepared for the amount of strokes she gave me since it had been so long since I'd taken much pain at all. I am happy Domina is determined to train her pet! She berated me for getting hard and letting her cock drool without permission and gave it a few good whacks with the smaller-headed crop. Obviously that won't be much of a problem after Domina locks her cock up soon. She also wanted to fuck her cock and backed her wonderful pussy down her aching cock. "You may cum pet, but you will pull out and cum on my asshole." she purrred. "Enjoy it because it will be your last orgasm for sometime. I haven't decided how long of course." I was definitely afraid of pulling out and cumming but I had no choice. Domina's pussy felt soooooooooo good. I came. Hard and long.

And then she ordered what I dreaded- "Now pet. Clean it up."

I was very tentative. Not that I don't want to eat cum for my Domina, I just wasn't expecting it this soon. :(

"That's not very enthusiastic pet. You better get used to the taste of cum" Domina stated.

I know she wasn't talking about only the taste of my cum. I can't wait what the future will bring as we continue our lifestlye......

UPDATE

2010-01-18T22:46:00.001-05:00

I know I said the changes in our lives would be long-term and I meant it. Hopefully we are in our new home soon and able to continue our lifestyle. It has been a long, difficult few months. We are aching to be back. I hope all who have subscribed will still be here!

Wow. Can't believe it's been this long.

2009-11-05T22:27:00.002-05:00

Domina and I have had to take a very extended hiatus unfortunately. BIG changes in our lives that are extremely long term. I hope we get back to things and they will be better than ever!

Saturday punishment and a word on being busy with RL

2009-07-06T21:53:00.002-04:00

I usually try to recount punishments as quickly as possible so I do not forget what happened however during the summer we get so busy on the weekends trying to do family and friend stuff that it becomes a challenge. Does anyone have any feedback on overcoming these challenges and staying in "it" so to speak? We're finding it quite difficult.

Saturday

Domina wished to keep training her cock which in this instance meant punishing her cock. We have a post in our finished basement and Domina made use of it this night. I can't recall all the details but the crux was this: my cock was caned mercilessly.

Domina used the black rope to tightly bind her cock and balls so they were turning a nice shade of purple. She gets this effect more by looping the rope over my head while knotting in places and then yanking it down to tie it back through my legs so the rope is up my ass as well. I know she loves the way it looks. This night she wrapped a bungee around the post and used one of the short bungees to attach from the wrapped bungee to the rope between my legs. I had to step forward and stretch the bungee which puts great pressure on her cock and balls. It makes her cock stick out, straining quite nicely and I am orderred to stand straight. She brought out the thickest cane and began. She loves to beat me in tens, ten strokes on her cock at a time. Her favorite part of beating her cock is to bring the cane down on the tip hard and watch it bounce. Oh does she like to watch it bounce. I of course have to have the bit in my mouth. 50 strokes later and she released me. She parked me in the corner for a bit while she relaxed and then had me lay in front of her and stroke her cock ordering me to keep it from drooling. At the time I had not cum for over a week (now 10 days) and it was impossible for precum not to emerge. When this happened she would rap her cock with the cane and I would have to wipe it off with my fingers and lick and suck them clean. When she finished with this she did something I did not expect....she wrapped me back into the rope and attached me to the bungees AGAIN. She wasn't finished training her cock. She brought the cane down 20 more times I think and then gave me an opportunity to not receive more. She stepped in front of me and pulled down her panties to reveal her angelic ass to me. "Step forward and lick it bitch. If you do well enough I may stop caning my cock." she said. I strained against the bungee to stick my tongue as deep in her ass as I could. Of course she kept moving forward as she laughed and I had to strain the cords even more. Abrutly she stopped and declared I couldn't even lick ass well enough. I was made to stand where I was as she completed 50 more strokes across her cock. It was unbearable but I took it for my Domina. I am her pain toy. I would have taken more, I WANTED to take more for her!

She did say she was not anywhere near finished training her cock.

A special tag

2009-07-02T21:07:00.002-04:00

Domina wished to have an additonal piece to my collar. I was required to go to the local pet store and print out a doggie tag:

SLAVE

Luckily it was an automated machine and no one saw it. not that I wouldn't have done it anyway, I will do whatever Domina commands and revel in it. It's a cute little blue, bone shaped tag. She LOVED it! so much so that I was allowed to sleep with her again while chained to the bed with the leash.

Tonight will be another night of extended punishment. I look forward to being able to take whatever Domina has prepared with great anticipation!

Sometimes begging works

2009-06-30T22:02:00.002-04:00

I begged. I begged long and hard to not have to spend last night in the cage. I don't know if Domina was just feeling lenient but I was allowed to sleep with her. Sleeping on the plastic tray was so uncomfortable I thanked Domina so much dfor this privilege last night. After beating my bruised ass for my nightly beating, She wrapped her leash around the head of the bed and attached it to my collar so I had limited movement. This turned her own enough that she fucked herself with her vibrator while I was inches away and couldn't touch her and I was not allowed to touch her cock. I know she enjoyed it so. She did declare that I would be spending another night in the cage this week, at her whim. I will beg again tonight and hope she is feeling generous. With the holiday coming up I will likely be subjected to more strenuous punishment Thursday night this week. Hopefully I can sleep in her bed until then.

Punishment begins

2009-06-29T16:41:00.008-04:00

It did not last terribly long, but it was intense, and it has just begun according to Domina. This is the punishment for cumming without permission, Domina is determined to train her cock.

She decided we would do tonights all in the beroom. First, I was inspected as usual, my chest I was allowed a pass on as I have had some irritation lately and had asked permission earlier to let it recover. Domina's balls did not pass however and I was immediately given 20 with the crop across my ass for this. Next Domina used the black rope to tightly bind her cock and balls. She loops the rope around my waist and up my ass so she can pull it as tight as possible. Her cock stands out straight and purple, and she loves it. She always giggles evily when it is tied up like this. I had PAIN TOY written across my ass in Sharpie as she does love to label for what she wants to do to me. Domina applied the wrist and ankle cuffs and ordered me to bend over the small wooden chair as she brought the bit-gag around my mouth, she knew I would need it. She started with the crop as a warm up and gave me quite a few and moved into the spatula. After a few strokes she asked "How many is that pet?" I paused. I hadn't been counting. "You don't know do you?" she stated more than asked. "No Domina," I whispered. "Oh well, we'll just start at one," she sang happily. The best part is when she was done beating me with the spatula, she never even asked how many, but it was a little over 100 times.

I was then ordered to my knees and to place my hands back and plant my face on the floor. She clasped my ankle and wrist cuffs together, placed one of the strands of four clothes pins on my chest and nipples, pushed me to the floor and put her foot on my face. "Keep your face on the floor fuck toy." she ordered. "These will stay on your balls for awhile," she laughed as she attached the other strand of 4 clothespins to my balls. I can't recall if she beat me more with the spatula or the crop but it was one of the two and then she moved to grab a cane.

After a few whacks and yelps from me she stated "I'll remove one clothespin after 20 strokes. Get ready and count them." These were hard to take (bent over like this the beatings hurt more as the flesh is more stretched out and a little less cushion there) and I certainly wasn't quiet, I was biting the bit quite hard. I was admonished and given some extra strokes a couple times for moving around too much which put the count of cane strokes well over 100. Domina was not finished beating my ass and pulled down the wood paddle. "Your night is not over yet Pain Toy, " she purred. "COUNT", she ordered and the paddle slammed home, 20, and again, 40, 50. Pause. SLAM, 60, 70, 90 100, 120. Finally Domina stopped. "On your knees!" As I raised she ripped the clothespins off my chest, I had forgotten about them and I yelped in pain. She laughed.

She sat in the chair and had me waddle over in my restrainsts. And began to whip the crop over the tip of her cock. Each time sets of ten that I had to count. Over and over and over. I don't know how many times, but I assume we got to 100. I was biting the bit soooo hard.

As I kneeled there whimpering she said "Now pet, you'll see that I have removed the doggie pillow from the cage to leave only the hard plastic tray. This is how you will be sleeping tonight, to help you remember to control my cock, on the hard plastic. Maybe you can earn the doggie pillow back. But you know what the tray is for don't you pet? Get in the cage." She locked me in after removing my cuffs and had me as close to one side as possible as she slid her panties off and stepped up on the chair and effectively squatted over me. I was waiting in great anticipation as she released her self on me. I know she enjoyed it immensely as she ordered me to piss on myself as well and watched intently. "You can wallow in that for a minute or two and then you will clean it up, shower yourself off and then I'll lock you back in for the night pet, " she stated.

And I have not had as uncomfortable night as that before. Domina's cock was throbbing, my ass was stinging and I had to sleep on the hard plastic. I want desperately to control Domina's cock for her. And as she said, this was only the beginning of my punishment...

Quiet until tonight

2009-06-28T21:31:00.002-04:00

Domina and I have been very busy with life these past few days into the weekend. I have been allowed to sleep with her the last few nights but tonight will be an extended punishment session. I will of course be recounting it here tomorrow. It seems it may have a lot to do with the cage....

I.Have.No.Resolve

2009-06-24T21:43:00.002-04:00

Being Domina's pet is extremely stimulating. Too stimulating, but I'll get to that in a moment. Last night Domina desired to try and fuck her cock again. I did last a little bit longer, but not nearly enough for her. She did allow me to make her cum with my mouth and lick her pussy! I was so excited! It did nothing to dissuade her from having me sleep in the cage again :(. I tried begging to no avail and this time it was all night. All night.

A note on sleeping in the cage: I can fit in the cage fine...as long as my legs are bent. So I have to sleep curled up like this and I have enough room to shift from side to side but my legs are always bent. By the time morning rolls around I desperately hope I do not wake up too much early than Domina as this is when it is most uncomfortable. By morning I am desperate to stretch my legs out but I cannot. I also hope I don't wake too early and have to pee as I will not risk waking Domina to ask permission. She would be quite angry if I woke her. Quite angry.

So, I slept all night in the cage and today Domina was not feeling well and worked from home. Sometime in the morning I came upstairs and she desired to pet me and allowed me to lay next to her. She began stroking her cock some and it felt so wonderful. Here is where my lack of any resolve comes in. I couldn't even control myself with her hand stroking her cock and I came. She was livid. I got beat with the spatula right there and now I am awaiting even greater punishment. I really don't know how to control the orgasm after not cumming for days. I've tried clinching and breathing. I just have to try harder for Domina.

I fear what will come from this. I know that I'll at least be in the cage again.

Back in the cage....

2009-06-23T21:34:00.006-04:00

Last night Domina again wished to fuck her cock. Or at least try. I still have no control, certainly after not cumming for days. I wish so much to be able to have the stamina to at least last a few minutes for her but I am quite pitiful when it comes to being inside her. :( She had on very sexy lingerie and had her leash on my collar, holding it while she slid herself on her cock.

I lasted all of a few seconds.

She was quite angry and declared right then that I would be sleeping in the cage the next two nights. I begged and begged to no avail. She did allow me to aid in her orgasm by pleasuring her breasts. She does enjoy making me watch her cum but I know she wants to fuck her cock. She keeps threatening to bring in another cock that can actually satisfy her. I would of course be locked in the cage and forced to watch. I certainly don't wish this but I would endure it for her. I want nothing but her pleasure!

While helping her cum I thought of trying to prolong it in some way briefly, But I knew it was only a selfish thought to keep from going in the cage as long as possible so I of course did not act on the thoughts. I feel badly for even having them. :(

I reluctantly crawled to the cage last night and begged and begged not to go in but it only angered Domina and she kicked me a few times on my way in. I spent most of the night there but luckily Domina got restless and let me out as she wished to feel me next to her in my collar. I know thought that I will be back in tonight...

Getting back into it

2009-06-22T22:04:00.002-04:00

Even though I wore the panties for Domina all weekend we couldn't really be in our comfort zone around others so much and being with our son in a hotel room. We had a good time of course but we were glad to be back

Last night I spent much of the evening sitting on Domina's lap in my panties and collar. She stroked her cock for a good 5 minutes solid too. I make a good lap dog for her! It also meant I got to share her bed last night as well. After I got my nightly beating worth of three nights in all at once. She certainly missed giving them to me. I am so happy to be in my collar and at her feet again. Also, it's been four days since she has allowed her pet to cum. I have no idea how long it will be this time, though I am still waiting to see what my punishment will be for cumming without permission the last time.

My place this week: end of the bed

2009-06-17T21:50:00.002-04:00

As I expected I've been sleeping at Domina's feet in my collar and panties at the end of the bed all week. I am VERY thankful I haven't been back in the cage which I know I deserve. Domina went shopping tonight while I cared for our son. Lingerie shopping...for me. She bought a handful of new outrageous panty-boy panties for our trip this weekend. I can't wait to wear them for her! One pair is even crotchless so I will have no hope of containing anything. I'll have to do a fashion show for her, maybe she'll take pics!

A lull in the action

2009-06-16T22:51:00.004-04:00

Domina and I had a weekend where, unfortunately we had to suspend our lifestyle activities. As I have said we are learning together how to integrate this into our lives and sometimes it is a real challenge. This weekend life interfered too much and we let ourselves slip out of it. We have talked extensively about this and how we can stay in our new found relationship. We will be put to the challenge again as we travel out of town this weekend with our son and another family. Our goal is to stay in it completely as we feel more connected and together when she is the Domina. The last couple of nights have consisted of us discussing things and getting back into groove so to speak. I have received nightly beatings and we are back on our way.

That being said I need to update on what happened Thursday night...

Epic fail. That is only how I can describe what happened. Domina was already being generous with herself and allowing me to aid in her orgasm again while she pleasured herself. But again, Domina wished to fuck her cock....I am worthless to her in this way as I once again could not handle the absolute joy of being inside her and came again without permission. She was pissed to say the least. She drug me off the bed and immediately threw me in the cage. I said nothing as there was nothing I could say. I failed her. Again. Even though we had our issues over the weekend I know I will still be punished very severely for last week. I know Domina has been doing research so I cannot imagine what will happen, it will only make it worse that I know the bulk of it won't come this weekend either. She may have something clever planned while we're out of town. I am trying to make up for it but work is getting im the way as well, another excuse I know she won't accept.

cumming without permission. Again. :(

2009-06-11T21:05:00.003-04:00

Tuesday night. I hadn't posted this yet as I was very ashamed. The night started off shaky as Domina wished to fuck her cock. I had cum two days prior however my stamina was nowhere to be found and I could not last long. Domina was disappointed and ordered me to sleep at the end of the bed. I begged and begged Domina to allow me to please her and she let me lick her pussy until she came. It was glorious as I hadn't been allowed to lick Domina's pussy in some time. I was then ordered to the end of the bed as Domina went to sleep.

Halfway through the night my downfall was sealed. Domina awoke and grabbed me by my collar to her. "I want my cock inside me slave", she ordered. It felt extremely good. Oh god it felt too good. I tried to stop it. I grabbed Domina's cock and squeezed hard but it was too late. She let me put it inside her and fuck her as I came and she was laughing at me while it happened. "Pitiful slave. Pitiful". Then she shoved me to the end of the bed letting me know my punishment would be severe.

I still do not know what my punishment will be. I was at least allowed to aid Domina in her orgasm last night and sleep at Domina's feet (I fully expected to be in the cage all week) but she has not touched her cock since. I am waiting in fear as to what my punishment will be this weekend...

A quiet night

2009-06-09T21:44:00.003-04:00

I know I pleased Domina on Sunday night because last night was much more subdued. I got to sitt on Domina's lap while she watched TV! I love this so much as she pets and plays with me at her leisure. It is quite nice. I was even allowed to sleep next to her for the second night on a row. I tried to make sure I accomplished all my chores during the day since I was working from home and I hope that contributed to her generous mood. I can only hope I continue to please Domina this week.

Sunday night: pet gets to cum!! But there's always a price..

2009-06-08T14:09:00.007-04:00

First, the weekend was pretty busy with friends and family so Domina was not able to spend much time on her pet Friday and Saturday. Saturday she had planned on working on my training however she was not feeling well and I just tried to serve her as best I could.

Sunday, she made up for it (for herself of course). It wasn't a long session but it was rather intense. There weren't any specific things for which I was being punished, simply Domina training her pet how she wishes. This night we were only in the bedroom. The first part was actually my favorite part as it was something we hadn't really done before to this extent. I was bent over a chair backwards, grabbing the legs of the chair. I had the cuffs on and Domina latched my wrists together so I could not pull up. She started beating my ass then, I know she used the crop, and the spatula, there may have been other things but I could not see and she eventually shoved the ball gag in my mouth to stifle me. I wished I could have taken more beating for Domina in this position but she stopped and ordered me to spread my legs. She was going to shave my ass. After that she cleaned me out but with a twist. After she emptied the enema bottle into me she proceeded to sit on my face. I love when Domina tortures me in this way and the mix of focusing on keeping my bowels in while not being able to breathe was quite heady. Domina loved it as well since she went right to her vibrator while I relieved myself. After I finished my cold shower (I hoped my shrieks helped turn Domina on even more) she ordered me to please her tits to make sure she came quickly. She did and I was sooo happy for her! Domina shoved me back to the floor as soon as she came. Then my wrists were chained to the head of the bed while I was on my knees. I could hear Domina strapping on her cock getting ready to fuck my ass. She climbed on top of me and shoved it in quickly. I yelped away in pain and was ashamed I could not take it quickly enough for her. Domina just laughed and slid it in more slowly. It felt wonderful for Domina to have me chained to the bed while she fucked and fucked and fucked my ass. I know it please her when I am her asswhore!! She decided she was finished and ordered me to the bathtub. I was allowed to piss on myself while Domina stood over me and pissed all over my face. I love taking this for her! Finally, Domina ordered me to clean myself again and announced that I would be allowed to cum! I was soooooo excited!!!

When I had dried myself and emerged from the bathroom she was on the bed on all fours. "I want you to come on my ass slave. DO IT!!" I had to rub her cock all over her ass, and she even let me fuck her pussy for a little, and then I came all over her ass. It had been two weeks and it felt wonderful! It is always tempered however since I knew what would happen next.

"Clean it up slave." Domina purred. "You know how I mean so get to it."

I got down on my hands and knees and proceeded to lick the cum off of Domina's ass. I know if I do it enthusiastically enough I could be rewarded by sharing Domina's bed. I sucked and licked her ass as well as I could. I was able to sleep next to Domina all night as I had pleased her greatly! I hope I continue this as she continues my training.

pet's new "bed"

2009-06-05T22:39:00.003-04:00

Domina enjoyed the lingerie I wore for her yesterday. I had to run to the store yesterday morning and of course I had to wear the lingerie under my clothes. It felt incredibly sexy and I reveled in it. The feeling of the stockings under my jeans made Domina's cock hard. I am truly ashamed as I am most certainly Domina's panty boy. To make sure Domina knew I was wearing the lingerie I had to take pictures baring some of while in the store. I think she enjoyed that greatly.

Also last evening we went shopping for the next part of my punishment for not sleeping at the end of Domina's bed...at the pet store. She picked out a 42" dog cage that would be big enough to hold me. (I am only 5'7" and right now weigh about 150 lbs) I was incredibly ashamed...and incredibly turned on. I had to go back out after putting our son to bed and purchase it and set it up. I was given permission to go out last night but before Domina wanted to see me naked in the cage. Her cock betrayed me as it was rock hard being in the cage. This is also because the cage pleased Domina immensely, she loves it. Of course last night I had to sleep in the cage, I at least already had a pet pillow on which to sleep. I fit snugly in my cage and I am happy that Domina would put this kind of thought into my training as her pet. (Again, luckily, the house was cold and Domina retrieved her pet in the night to warm her bed. Thank you again Domina!)

More Punishment

2009-06-04T12:47:00.003-04:00

Last night Domina punished me for not going back to the foot of the bed the night before. She decided to chain me to the wall with the nipple clamps on and bungee me down while I received a total of 150 strokes to my ass- 50 with her crop, 50 with the stinger whip and 50 with the long wooden paddle. I was surprised I did not receive more however Domina stated my punishment for this was not over. We would be going out to purchase something else to continue my punishment. Then Domina wished to do some lifestyle reading an research during which I was to stand in the corner....with a set of four clothespins attached 2 to my balls and 2 to Domina's cock. She would read for 20 minutes and would remove one every 5 minutes. I left the one attached to the flesh at the base of the head of her cock to show her I would leave the most painful to last. We also worked on coming up with a schedule for me when I work from home. At the end of the night I was also given my nightly beating with her hair brush (she found it!) and the spatula. I curled up at her feet for the night. (Luckily though the it was unusually chilly and Domina was cold and allowed me to get under the cover to warm her! I was soo lucky!! THANK YOU DOMINA!!!!!)

Today, for not sending her a picture yesterday, I had to pick out a full lingerie outfit to wear all day and send Domina pics. I picked a nice pink corset, my pink butterfly panties and thigh high stockings. maybe some point I will be able to upload photos with Domina's permission...

Should have been a normal night...

2009-06-03T16:26:00.003-04:00

And it was at first. Nothing extremely interesting was happening as Domina and I had spent most of the night discussing a significant life changing event that is happening. I was given my nightly beating, which has now become to be delivered by her plastic spatula as her wooden hair brush has gone missing. She climbed under the covers and I curled up at her feet. During the night we heard our son get out of bed and I quickly got u p and under the covers as I forgot to lock the door. Turned out he was only using the bathroom and went straight back to bed. Unfortunately I fell back asleep without going back to Domina's feet. She whispered in my ear this morning that obviously my transgression did not go unoticed and I would be punished for it. Severly, as she had told me explicitly I was to be at her feet for three nights in a row, no ifs, ands or buts. I also forgot to send Domina a pic which she likes to see everyday when she is at work. My punishment for the night increased because of it. So I have been working at home, wondering what deviltry Domina has planned for me tonight. The waiting is tortuous enough...

A new week with Domina!

2009-06-02T14:14:00.003-04:00

Sunday was full of family time and Domina did not feel the need to play with her pet, though I did get my nightly spanking across my bruised ass. Domina does indeed enjoy seeing the bruises. I did beg VERY hard for Domina to allow me to sleep in the bed with her. She eventually acquiesced- at a price. If she let me share her bed, under the covers, next to her I would be sleeping at the foot of her bed for the next three nights. No way to win her favor, no way to earn my way in. Three nights. I whimpered but accepted as I so wanted to be next to her.

Monday I worked from home and was able to sit in my collar and panties all day. Domina certainly enjoyed her daily pic of her cock and panties with the bruises that she had raised. She loves the deep shades of purple her cock turns after she has beaten it. Monday night Domina warned that her cock had better shape up or she may get another to please her. She said she would make me watch as she fucked another and after she came all over his cock she would make me eat her pussy while she sat on my face. I told Domina that I would do whatever she pleased but I would be ashamed that her cock would not please her. I also wondered quietly whether or not the cock she came on would have come inside her when she sat on my face...I would do it for Domina. I sat later at Domina's feet while we finished a movie and then she decided she needed to cum. I was to stroke her cock and aid in her orgasm and again watch as she came on her dildo, it is soooo frustrating as I want to touch her more. She actually ordered me to stick my finger in her ass while she came! What an honor, I was soo happy! I want her to touch me more. And then she decided to slide her wet pussy onto her cock after I had been forced to stroke it with luve and it was rock hard from having my finger in her ass. I lasted as long as I could and Domina laughed at my struggles. I am pitiful. And I finished the night by curling up at her feet at the end of the bed. Her cock was still hard.

Real Punishment

2009-05-31T23:43:00.003-04:00

Last night, Domina gave me a real taste of my deserved punishment. This was all for cumming without permission earlier in the week. First I had to clean up a bit, pick up her bedroom and put away laundry. I had to collect the items Domina required and place them appropraitely- bedroom, basement living area and her oubliette. First, as I had not shaved my ass to her satisfaction, she had me bent over on the floor on all fours to shave my ass. Next, she cleaned her pet out with an enema and, as always, I had to hold it in and when I felt I could hold it no longer (min of 5 mins) I had to releave myself in front of her in my bucket, I am often not allowed to use the toilet. After I cleaned myself with a cold shower, Domina likes to hear my squeals from the cold water, I was lead by leash to the basement. Domina tied up my cock and balls and applied the cuffs and then to the oubliette wall. Face first I was chained by the cuffs and then secured completely with bungee cords. A very shrewed way to make sure I cannot move. Tonight she used a ball gag to stifle my whining.

Domina loves to label her pet to her desires and tonight she wrote ASS WHORE across my ass in shrpie. Then the beating began. I don't recall how many, there was too much too count which of course meant I took more. She started with a small but painful flat spatula she has adopted soley for spanking and then went to her canes. I think she used them all, she has a handful in various sizes. The ones across the tops of my thighs are always the hardest. Then she used the real paddle. The long, thick wooden paddle- her favorite. I wish I could remember how many I took but she beat me until her arm was too tired. Maybe 100 strikes? Then she turned me around.

Domina reminded me again that she was beating her cock to make sure I could remember not to cum without permission. She loves to start these with her small headed crop, just the right size for smacking across her cock. By the time she moved to the cane I was whimpering loudly. A few strikes across her cock with the cane she was done with my noises. If I was not quieter she would beat me more. It's surprsing how much of an affect this can have, my jaw certainly was sore the next day as I bit down on the ball to endure the caning of Domina's cock.

When she finished with this I was removed from the wall, cuffs still on, and moved to the living area where I had placed a towel, lube and Domina's strap on. Thankfully this a 6 inch cock though Domina has threatened to by a larger one, I'm sure she will surprise me with it at some point. I of course needed to lube Domina's strap on and was forced to suck it. If I do not worship her strap on cock properly things would only get worse and I sucked it as best I could. Next she latched my arm cuffs to my ankle cuffs and guided her lubed cock into my ass. This is when Domina expects me to be her good little ass whore. She likes to simply fuck me and then make me fuck her. Again, I must perform well and I fuck her cock like a good little ass whore! I love to slide my ass up and down her cock for her. I know it pleasures her to watch me ride it! She loves it sooo much and eventually I get so tired, my head is pressed to the carpet with my hands latched behind me, and this is when she revels in fucking me silly. She did this for 30 minutes I think. I took it long and hard for her.

Finally Domina was finished with me and I picked up and cleaned up all her toys while she rested. I thought she had more punishment to give me but she was finished with me. Luckily I pleased her enough that I was able to sleep close to her!

I worked hard this morning when we got up and did house work for her in my collar and panties while she read the paper (our son was staying overnight with his grandparents). I do so love being able to serve Domina!

A taste of punishment

2009-05-30T21:45:00.003-04:00

Last night Domina gave me only a taste of my punishments to come for this evening. I have failed and disappointed her all week and now I am to receive my reprimands. I was surprised how light it seemed but I know she was just warming up for tonight. I was whipped with her stinger, a plastic whip with "barbs" and her smallest cane. I also had to hold clothespins on her cock as well as rip them off myself (I would much rather Domina do this) and take the nipple clamps for an extended period. I also needed to clean her shoes repeatedly. I again was allowed to sleep at her feet for which I was very thankful!

Today we did not do much as it was more of family time. I know tonight will be a much larger challenge as I am cleansed of my transgressions. I hope I perform well for my beloved Domina.

2009-05-29T22:27:00.002-04:00

I am including yesterday's post and then today's as I will be posting directly to here from now on:

5/28/09

Last night Domina was still disappointed in her pet. I was out with an approved outing with friends and when I got back she did not give her pet much attention, not that it was deserved. I received my nightly spanking and was chastised again for failing her. I was allowed to sleep in Domina’s bed, in case she wanted to pleasure herself on her cock, but I was not allowed to sleep close to her. This was almost worse than having to sleep on my pet bed or at the foot of the bed. Domina never touched her pet. L

I had to travel for work today and was not around Domina at all during the day, I’m sure she was fine with this with my failures, though I was to check in with her before being allowed to have lunch. When I did, Domina informed me she would not be touching her cock this week or the next. I was crestfallen. However at lunch I was to stroke her cock for five minutes in the bathroom stall. I, of course, sent her a picture of her cock showing my panties as she expects.

As I sit at Domina’s feet as she watches TV I expect she will not touch her pet again tonight. I can only hope to be allowed to help her pleasure herself in some way.

5/29/09

Domina continues to be displeased with me. I was only to work on the blog last night after she gave me my nightly spanking over her knee. I so wanted her to continue so that I could stay in contact with her but it was short. I was told to work on the blog and then to sleep at the foot of her bed. I was at least happy to be at her feet in my collar.

I was working from home and able to be in my collar and panties all day today. Now I am awaiting some of my punishments for my failures this week. I can only hope I take them to her satisfaction and she rewards me with her touch.

2009-05-28T23:46:00.005-04:00

I started documenting this week before Domina decided I should put this online as a blog. These are the first two days, I will post more but this is a start. This week started well, but has not ended well...

5/26/09

I love it when Domina plays with me during the week! Well. Makes me play with myself while she pleasures herself in this case. Of course Domina had more planned last night but after she administered her reminder of my service and responsibilities and then I was too slow trying to assemble her new equipment cabinet she was upset with me. All I was allowed to do was clean myself out with an enema, relieve myself in front of her in my bucket and then fuck myself while Domina masturbated. She wanted to see me fuck myself silly with the “big, red jelly dong” while she fantasized another well endowed boy was fucking me in the ass. I had to get it in quickly and fuck myself over and over thinking about another man’s cock in my ass while she watched I really got into it for Domina. (I know if I didn’t and help her cum I would likely be sleeping on my pet bed with the dildo in my ass the rest of the night.) I was eventually yelling things like “Please make me your bitch!”, “Fuck my dirty ass, SHOVE IT IN!”, “Please fuck me hard for my Domina!” and “CUM IN MY ASS PLEASE CUM IN MY ASS!!!” I am ashamed to admit that I liked the fantasy a lot. I would love to have my ass fucked for my Domina!

I was happy that I pleased my Domina. She came and I got to sleep in the bed under the covers with her. I was sooo happy! :D

I’ve been working from home today and been able to be in my collar and panties for Domain all day! She was able to come home from work after her dental appointment and I was also given the honor of greeting her properly on my knees. I don’t get to do this often and I cherish it every opportunity.

5/27/09

Last night was not as joyful for Domina’s pet. I finished Domina’s new cabinet and organized it to her satisfaction. Then she wished to stroke her cock.

….

She stroked her cock for a bit and then she wished to cum. I was to stroke her cock while assisting in her orgasm by sucking and biting her nipples. This part I did well, she came at least. After she was finished she wished to stroke her cock more with lube. I…tried VERY hard but it had been nine days since pet’s last orgasm and her touch felt sooooo good. She tried to squeeze her cock and keep it in but I could not control it. I came. :( :( :( It was not enjoyable as I tried to keep it in and she would not stroke her cock to make it pleasurable. I did not deserve it of course.

Domina was extremely disappointed in her pet. Rightfully so. :( Because of this Domina would not let me share her bed and her pet slept on the pet bed.

Domina did not pay attention to her pet for most of the day, she was busy but I know it was also because I disappointed her. Her pet was allowed to go out with friends for a planned night out; I believe permission was granted because she did not want me around. I can only hope to make it up to her some how. I know my punishment will be severe and I fear I will not cum again for sometime. I must be able to control her cock so she may do with it as she pleases.

pet's Rules and Responsibilities

2009-05-28T23:09:00.006-04:00

First post. There is no trepedation as this is what Domina requires. I am to blog daily, but I must post what is required of me:

Rules and Requirements for Domina’s pet:

Rules:
- Wear panties at all times, the pet is the Domnia’s panty boy and may not wear Men’s underwear
- Wear the collar whenever appropriate- This is any time the pet is alone with Domina in her home or when so told to put it on.
- NEVER touch Domina’s cock- the pet does not have a cock, it belongs to Domina and the pet is only to touch it when cleaning or pissing NEVER for pleasure unless told to do so.
- Always greet in proper position- In private the pet will greet Domina in the proper kneeling, head on the floor, at her feet position. In public, the pet will come to her and rest the pet’s head on hers in deference. The pet will always express how much the pet has missed Domina and worshipping at her feet.
- The pet is not allowed to sit on furniture. Pets DO NOT sit on furniture.
- NEVER make eye contact with Domina unless given permission. The pet is not worthy.
- DO NOT speak, unless spoken to or unless given permission to speak freely
- DO NOT touch Domina unless given permission
- The pet will be ready for its nightly spanking before Domina retires for the night
- The pet is not allowed in Domina’s bed without permission and must ask every night
- The pet must be properly groomed with shaved face, chest, cock and balls
- Update my pet journal daily and punishment log as needed
- The pet MUST request permission for the following:
Use the bathroom
Eat
Leave the house

*When applicable, these rules apply to all other Mistresses as so designated by Domina

Always have the following in the house:
- Wine- White, Domina’s favorite is Barefoot Pinot Grigio
- Enemas- only store generics, the pet does not need anything else
- Lube- Make sure plenty of lube is available

Tasks that must be done when appropriate:
- Cleaning all dildos
- Ensure all “toys” and equipment are put away in their proper places
- Hang Domina’s clothes up each day or night

Both Domina and I work and we have a wonderful son together. This simply makes meeting my requirements as her pet that more challenging and enjoyable.